My story is no more important than yours just because I’m serving around the world. God asks something different from all of us but that doesn’t take away from our worth.
One of my favorite parts of the race has been listening to what others are walking through and being there for them through it. God put it on my heart to share some of my friend’s stories with you from America.
Everything we’re walking through has a purpose. God is guiding us through all seasons. He has conquered all that is behind you and gone before you for what’s to come. Trust in Him every day and ask what he has in store for you when you depend on him more. He wants you to say Yes to Him everyday.
Hi! I have known Brynna for a little under two years now and little did I know how much she would impact my life! With that said, I am very honored to write about what God is teaching me for her blog.
Dependence
This word I have actually not been fond of in my past. I have always been an easy-going person, the youngest sibling, dependent type minded on others. This I considered a weakness. I don’t think I truly knew myself and tried to find my worth in others and in what I did. Culturally, I think we are taught to be independent, which in hindsight is not all that bad. But as of recent, the phrase, “live for yourself” is also intertwined with independence.
I noticed that over the years, I was increasingly self-absorbed and trying to control certain things in my life and my identity was in what I did and whom I was with. Although, I was happy, I was not fulfilled, searching for something else to complete my inner desire for wholeness. Without going into too much detail, my marriage crumbled and I was found alone and hurting. I think God gives and takes away what exposes what is in our hearts (comfort, selfishness, etc). Our desire to be in authority of our own lives and refusing to have God take control is when things started to spiral out of control for me. My focus changed from independence from God towards dependence on God. This I was familiar with, but not comfortable with. I want to know the future and what is in store and do things my way. When we are the “king” of our own lives, Jesus is not king. He came to give us life to the fullest and when we come to him on his terms things start to change.
What I am learning is God wants a relationship with us. He is trying to redeem a world and people and wants to create shalom from a place of chaos. In Exodus, when Moses was just beginning his journey with God, Moses was unsure of the whole thing and asked God who he was. God’s response was “I AM”. Who is Jesus to you? He is not who you want him to be. He can’t be put in a box. He is who he says he is and will continue to be. My dependence on God is what I am learning. That I cannot rely on myself or on others but Him alone. It is not an easy task but something I am willing to take on in this journey and thing called life.
