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Things are changing. My friends are growing up, working full time, and moving away (ps I miss you). Finding time to get together has become more difficult with those who still live in the area. In less than two weeks, I begin 22 days of camp. The first week, I’ll be back at my favorite church camp with my favorite people. GO CAMP JUBS. The next two weeks will be spent at training camp, finally meeting the people I will be serving alongside. The day I’ve been looking forward to for many, many months is getting closer (81 days to be exact). Time is flying. It’s overwhelming.  

These past few weeks, I’ve been caught up with the idea that I am going to leave everyone and everything here. I am so incredibly blessed to have the friends and family that I do, and it’s finally hitting me that I will not see these incredible humans for 11 months. I’m safe and comfortable here, how could I leave this place? 

I was reminded though, that when I signed up for the World Race, I signed up to abandon what is comfortable and all the challenges that came with. To put complete trust in the Lord, that He will give me the safety and security I need.  

I allowed myself to be overwhelmed by the idea of being busy, that even when I had time available, I felt busy. I was letting deadlines get to me; this must be done by this time, there are this many days until this…  My mind was moving nonstop. I was getting caught up in the future that I lost track of the present. I had more than enough time to rest, but I never let myself. I was in constant motion whether it was physically, mentally, or both. I felt exhausted. I took myself away from others, and only reached out when I reached my low point.  

I lost sight of the joy in the journey and became overwhelmed with the thought of the journey.  

I came across the song Into Faith I Go by Pat Barrett, and it expressed everything I was feeling through this trial. The first line is, “I’ve never been good at change.” Like ok, I’m already hooked. The song really put into perspective what I was feeling and that I let what was happening around me, consume me. Fear of the change began to limit me, and it is time to allow change to happen.

I’m dedicating this week to getting myself back on track and letting my soul rest. Allowing myself to be refreshed and restored with Him.  To be more intentional with my interactions and conversations and spending more time in prayer. 

I pray for all those who are going through a similar struggle that you don’t become consumed by your surroundings and you learn to love the journey again. 

When you partner with me through prayer and donation, you’re partnering with me through my triumphs and TRIALS. Thank you to all those who help me reignite my light each morning and remind me that I am never alone. For the reminder that God doesn’t give us something we can’t handle, and He fully equips us to get through. 

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