I get to freaking travel the world serving others and serving God. Sometimes I forget that this is actually my life for another 8 months. It’s weird though, I knew there would be growth throughout the journey, but the growth I’ve experienced thus far is different than what I expected.
I’ve learned things like how to be ok with going to the bathroom with people feet away hearing all that goes on. I’ve learned how to make clothes last longer than they should. I’ve learned how to run on 4 hours of sleep throughout travel days. I’ve learned how to show others love when you can’t speak the same language.
I have yet to learn the one thing I wanted to learn on the race.
I wanted to grow in doing things for the first time and being okay with not having all the answers before starting something. I have this fear that if I don’t know exactly what I’m doing people will think less of me and think I am not fully qualified. Crazy right?
With the World Race, we aren’t in one place for more than a month, which means a lot of new places and new things. Which means a lot of doing things I don’t know how to do and going places I’ve never been. Exactly what I want to grow in. I came in with the mentality that God would instantly fix this fear because I’d have to do many things for the first time.
I’m here to tell you, three months into the race I still have a difficult time going places I’ve never been before and branching out from what I’ve become familiar with.
Yes, God heals and fixes things, but he doesn’t just do it when we want. We have to meet Him.
I’ve come to realize, it’s not about God healing me completely, it’s me being okay with not being fully capable on my own.
Sometimes it seems what I am capable of is only 57% of what I THINK IS NECESSARY to complete something. But the way God sees it is EVEN IF MY ALL is 57%, He will complete the other 43% of what is necessary. It’s being CONFIDENT and UNAFRAID in what you have to give and TRUST that He will do the rest.
“God indeed is my salvation; I am confident and unafraid. For the Lord is my strength and my might…” Isaiah 12:2
He doesn’t get us to the finish line immediately if He did, what would we learn? We were born to be brave. He’s not going to give us all the answers, sometimes it takes risk to get there. But the end result is worth it. Coming out of the race more dependent than ever. He guides us through the uncomfortable places, but WE HAVE TO BE WILLING TO GO TO THOSE PLACES.
God loves seeing us grow, but you have to be willing to go to those places where growth happens and it’s happening every day. Find those places each day where you’re not fully confident and go there. BECAUSE GOD IS WAITING THERE FOR YOU.
