I remember making the drive to to the Atlanta airport. Tears in my eyes, silence beckoning heartbreak, heart pounding an inconsistent rhythm. Afraid. Scared. Coping. Confused.
I remember she began to play Slumber by Needtobreathe. No movement, no words spoken, we just sat and soaked in his words.
“… all these victims stand in line for crumbs that fall from the table, just enough to get by.”
Dang. What am I doing on this earth? From that day on, I struggled to listen to those lyrics without breaking down.
We got out of the car and said the most heart-ripping, worrisome goodbyes. I could see it in her eyes. She was doubting her decision. Years later she told me that all she wanted to do that day was run the other way. She didn’t want to go for nine months, she didn’t want to abandon everything. She didn’t want to drop out of college. She had never felt lonelier. She listened to “Slumber,” on repeat leading up to this day because she knew that she was barely living the life God called her to.
She left for nine months and God honestly shook her life upside down, broke it down, broke her down, and turned her into His most beautiful creation.
She joined a life-giving community, found her future husband, found her calling to overseas missions, and ultimately her life in South Africa.
Watching her leave everything- without an idea of what anything in her future looked like, absolutely, 100% changed everything.
She’s my twin sister, Alison, and she’s the reason we’re on the World Race five years later.
Those lyrics prove to be true today as I sit on a 15 passenger van driving through Thailand. Here I am, on the World Race with my husband, Bryce, as we follow her brave footsteps and see the other 99% of God’s creation.
“… all these victims stand in line for crumbs that fall from the table, just enough to get by.”
Do you want to just get by? Especially on crumbs alone? No meat, no vegetables, not even a FULL loaf of bread? Are you tired of feeling short-changed? God has called you. YOU. The one behind the computer/phone reading this very post.
Is it scary? Yes
Is it difficult to leave everything? Yes
Will it be hard? Yes
Will you doubt yourself? Yes
Will you see God clearer than you ever have in your life? Yes
Will you receive your full portion with gladness? Yes
Will your life path be forever changed? Yes
Are you God’s most beautiful creation? Absolutely
What are you waiting for?
