I am new to this blogging stuff, so a couple of my friends were generous enough to supply me with some tips on creating a good blog. This post is designed to help supporters, and those interested in following my story, in having a chance to hear more of my heart.
So why do I feel called to serve? I often find this question very difficult to answer. Was it some kind of fleeting emotion, or maybe a fearful desire to run from my troubles at home? After all, I regularly ponder why I have had such a hard time finding motivation in college, or even contemplating my reasons for pushing through life itself. Countless times I find myself sinking back, wondering what my life could have been if certain events had never happened. Maybe I would not be so broken? Maybe I would not hold onto the pain? However, my developing understanding of Christ compels me to believe, that without my brokenness, why would I need Him? If there wasn’t something missing, a deeper hunger within my soul, why would I need Jesus to fill that gap? Within this revelation of God, I find calling and redemption.
I do not desire to simply fly overseas, act like I know everything, and force my ideas onto people. I want to serve, because I want to love. I pray for a humble heart in realizing that I am just as broken as anyone across the world. I need the people I plan to serve, just as much as they may need me.
God has called me to take His heart of love, and pour out all that I am. I want to find great joy in God, while sharing my gifts and passions with others. Through this, my ultimate mission is relationship. Telling stories and laughing with children, holding the hands of the elderly as they share inspiring wisdom, and shouting songs of worship amongst every culture. I can not comprehend the breathtaking and heart grasping events God has in store, but I praise Him passionately for the opportunity He has given me, and for the work He is doing in my heart every moment.
Jesus, I pray that you change me. Bring my friends and family close on this journey, as I step into the role you have called me to. Teach me to love as you have, and keep my eyes open to the miracles of your hands.
Bryan
