Disclaimer: this blog was very hard for me to write. I strive to find the right words to convey the depth of the situation, of the story. I hope this story is life-giving to you, because it was life changing for me.
I had the opportunity to meet some beautiful souls in Colombia. I gave some of my heart to a lot of people there already. I had full control of how I felt towards a person, until I met…
Alexandra, Isa, Manu, Paulina
Man, oh man, upon 12 hours of knowing them Holy Spirit attached my heart to theirs. Even if I wanted to back out, there was no breaking what the Holy Spirit was doing.
He gave me four new sisters. Maybe they are not biologically related; maybe we do not even speak the same language. But God has bound my heart to their hearts in a very real, painful, and beautiful way.
The Holy Spirt gives all sorts of gifts to use to further His kingdom. He has given me something new, a new gift that I’ve started to discover. It’s the Gift of Intercession. It’s the gift of loving like Jesus loved, deep and hard. Let me explain a little bit. In the book Secrets of the Secret Place written by Bob Sorge, he states, “Intercession is the priestly ministry of a go-between, someone who stands between heaven and a need on earth and petitions the Father for a break-through” (Ch. 13). The Holy Spirit binds your heart to someone who needs healing, who needs prayer. I feel the depth and need of the situation for myself. I’m given God’s eyes for them, and His love just follows. It is the most real bond I have ever experienced. It is such a pure, perfect love.
Let me tell you the story. We met these beautiful souls a couple weeks ago at the waterfall. I took a couple of pictures with them, but I did not know them very well at all. Continuing, on the San Pedro weekend, we were partnered together to evangelize. On the streets one day, while evangelizing, something strange happened, we passed these people that we were forbidden to talk to. They looked like a nice enough family and I wanted to talk Jesus with them. Why could we not approach them? Later on, I asked why. Isa, able to be fully vulnerable, explained that it was her family. She told us how she felt abandoned and unloved by her family on her dad’s side. Her father never stuck up for her or defended her against their words or actions. As tears started flowing from her eyes, the Holy Spirit bound my heart to her heart eternally and unforgettably. Let me just remind you this is a whole new experience for me. I have loved in the past hard, but nothing like this? But because of God’s goodness, I am now able to pray on her behalf because I felt her pain in the depths of my soul. I can intercede for her and her family. I can love them like Jesus loves them.
The next day we were looking at pictures of Mamá Alejandra’s wedding. Moments later, we asked, “was it a happy day?” The truth came out about how hard the marriage had been, how he does not want much to do with Christianity. We all broke down. My 6 American friends and my 4 sisters in Christ all crying around the kitchen table. We prayed, saw visions, and held each other as Holy Spirit healed hearts. This is what Kingdom on earth looks like.
We were shown their pain to fully realize their situation. Their beautiful hearts have shouldered a lot of pain. Holy Spirit knew and decided to bind our hearts to their hearts. Praying for someone is one of the most profound ways to show someone your love for them. Like Sorge writes, “Our intercessory prayers thus become ‘cords of affection’ which bind the hearts of believers to one another” (Ch. 13). This is one of the most powerful ways the body of Christ is joined in love.
I have only felt this intense love for a handful of humans. And never in this sort of time. By that very statement, I know it is the Holy Spirit at work.
Alexandra, Isa, Manu, and Paulina, my beloved family. I will never forget you. I am already praying that I get to return to you sometime in the future. You will forever have my heart. Thank you and may God bless you all the days of your life.
Colombia forever has my heart. They stole is right out of my chest. The Lord gifted me this month. I am satisfied with my decision to abandon my life. If I didn’t have one more good day, it would all be worth it.
Other updates and events that went on this weekend. I became bold in my Spanish and bold in my attempts to evangelize. Seeds were planted in abundance. We saw a family forgive each other and turn back to the Lord, and then come to church. We saw creepy men, who aggressively told us how beautiful we were, come and ask for healing prayer. We saw many hearts healed by the grace of the Holy Spirit. We became completely undone worshiping our Lord together. We held countless amounts of weeping people as their hearts were being healed by God.
Worthy and Holy is the Lamb.
