I ventured to ask the Lord, will all of our covid tests be negative? He kindly answered me, “They all will be.” But my soul kinda sneered at it. I’ll believe it when I see it I thought. It seemed safer to trust later, after I compiled some evidence to prove it trustworthy. Through a hero named Sydney, 23 out of the 24 members of the squad got their results back 8ish hours before our scheduled departure.
Our pending result dropped us off at the airport. We hugged and said see you soon. After we successfully navigated check in and security, I got a call. Lydia, the pending result, had gotten a negative, a negative we were not sure we would receive! A quick trip to Holiday Inn, another thanks to Sydney, and an elevated security line wait, Lydia rejoined the squad. The entire squad got to travel to Guatemala all together.
Now this was a move of the Lord. The timing was exact and perfect. Man couldn’t have pulled off this stunt. 20 minutes later, she would have missed the flight.
He promised “they all will be negative”. And he moved after all common-sense hope was lost. I call Him trustworthy. I call Him faithful. Now, please tell me, why I wouldn’t believe the God who created life itself? Why did I fail to believe His word? Because trusting is scary. It puts your heart on the line every time. It is a “risk” every time. But why would the one who calls me Beloved and Daughter seek to ruin my trust or harden my heart towards Him? He fully loves me, so that I can fully trust Him.
This experience has opened my eyes. I am now working on trust without borders or safe guards. If the Lord says it, I want to believe it in all fullness. I want to trust completely.
Other thoughts I want you to know about:
– My soul and spirit have ignited upon arrival. I have once again discovered that this is what I love. But I don’t need emotion to spur me on. I feel as though I am beginning to wake up from a deep slumber and blow the dust off of my sleeves (Ephesians 5:14). I also feel that I have hit a discipleship flow that I have been yearning to hit. (Shout out to the kind person who prophesied this over me!)
– I am learning how to get in line with His movement, so that I can move in rest. (Shout out to Mae for the wording!)
– I am learning that I’ve had circles (of prayer and promise) drawn around me before I was even born. (Shout out to my mom, dad, and my family!)
– Jesus asked them to verbalize their desires.
– A well-developed faith results in well-defined prayers and well-defined prayers result in a well-lived life! (shout out to Mark Batterson)
– To not let physical separation, feel emotional.
– God is for me.
– No one who sacrificed will lose out. Look up, see, follow Jesus, Glorify God. (shout out to Luke 18).
All in all, I have chosen trust as one of my core values. Not one aspect of trust is really all that easy for me. But, for both God and humans, it is essential to living in deeper love, intimacy, and purpose.
