Our team has been feeling down lately.
Not feeling used.
Feeling home sick.
Finding out sad news.
Austin decided to have iPod worship instead of talking about our feelings for team time.
He felt God tell him to have us go to him instead of each other.
I was all for that. I didn't feel like talking about my feelings again. I mean 8 months of having every thought known is more than overwhelming for a girl who had so many secretes.
My mind is racing.
Thoughts on home.
What will I do when I'm at home? Will I be at the same home as I left? What job? Finish college?
Thoughts on marriage.
Who is the 'one'? How will i raise my kids? Am I ready?
I turn my iPod on and lay outside. I'm laying on a sidewalk that leads down a small hill to the gate. I can see the moon and stars. The clouds are moving in a circle. Heat lightning begins and it lights up the sky due to the clouds reflective-ness. God gave me a light show!
Suddenly my mind stops. I'm looking at this beauty with a busy mind. A worrying mind. Worrying is like being on a treadmill, Brooke, you put in a lot of work but you go no where.
The song 'By Your Side'' by Tenth Avenue North comes on. First of all, I love all of their songs. It always speaks to me. The lines "why are you looking for love? Why are you searching as of I'm not enough?" Then it goes on to say that God won't leave you know matter what. That he'll be by your side.
Not feeling used.
Feeling home sick.
Finding out sad news.
Austin decided to have iPod worship instead of talking about our feelings for team time.
He felt God tell him to have us go to him instead of each other.
I was all for that. I didn't feel like talking about my feelings again. I mean 8 months of having every thought known is more than overwhelming for a girl who had so many secretes.
My mind is racing.
Thoughts on home.
What will I do when I'm at home? Will I be at the same home as I left? What job? Finish college?
Thoughts on marriage.
Who is the 'one'? How will i raise my kids? Am I ready?
I turn my iPod on and lay outside. I'm laying on a sidewalk that leads down a small hill to the gate. I can see the moon and stars. The clouds are moving in a circle. Heat lightning begins and it lights up the sky due to the clouds reflective-ness. God gave me a light show!
Suddenly my mind stops. I'm looking at this beauty with a busy mind. A worrying mind. Worrying is like being on a treadmill, Brooke, you put in a lot of work but you go no where.
The song 'By Your Side'' by Tenth Avenue North comes on. First of all, I love all of their songs. It always speaks to me. The lines "why are you looking for love? Why are you searching as of I'm not enough?" Then it goes on to say that God won't leave you know matter what. That he'll be by your side.
And I feel a since of peace because I know this to be true.
