You can't do this
Your not good enough for that
Your not pretty enough
Your words are worthless
You, you, you
I would constantly put myself down
I would constantly tear myself down
Or was that me?
I heard once that if you are talking to yourself in third person… It's probably not you talking
so STOP listening to that!
STOP hearing the lies!
I takes too many truths to recover from one lie
START telling yourself who you are
START telling your friends who they are
START listening to your friends!
Your friends are NOT going to tear you down and if they do… I would reevaluate that relationship
Only have LOVING people in your life
People who can make you better!
I'm not saying to defriend people but know your standing
Don't let anyone hurt you
You are worth more!
It is a daily battle with me
Good vs evil
I have to constantly choose good everyday bc it is so easy to chose evil
Satan makes it seem… Fun
But the fun only lasts for a short time till its darkness again
It is like being stuck in an abusive relationship
But you can do something about it!
Say NO!
Get away
When ever I hear unwanted thoughts…
I say NO
I tell God to get close to me
Whenever I want to chew someone out…
I stop
I ask God to come close to me
The hardest part is when you don't feel the darkness
You feel… Empty but it doesn't bother you bc your not being torn at
I struggle at these times
I don't feel an attack so I don't ask God to come close
I need to ask God daily, hourly, minutely to come close to me
I need this to be my first reaction
I need more of God in my life
So I ask you, God, to be with me right here right now.
I ask for your presence with me known.
I ask for more of you God.
For my fire to be lit once again.
And for no more amnesia. I don't wanna forget the feeling I have when you are here with me.
I thank you God.
day 11 of 'Brooke Mort-A-Day'
$1,825.58 to go
