Team changes. That actually happened.
I’m sitting in a coffee shop surrounded by six other ladies. This is my team.
I’m trying to be present as we talk about a team name and goals and such, but to be honest I’m not quite there.
We finally pick a team name, it was relatively easy and painless as far as that goes, set a goal, and name the song that could be our theme for this season (in the name of fun)- I chose Levi Blues by Dala. As soon as we are done- oh, don’t forget that team picture- two of us jet back to the hotel where I cancel one of the two plans I had for that day and make a beeline for my bed.
During a good, ugly cry I came to a point of decision. Yes, I love my last team and yes, it is hard being moved, but here are ladies I already love and a great opportunity. So that decision point?
I can resign myself to the fact that I am on this new team, or I can choose to invest in my team.
What will it be? Resign or Invest? I cannot have both so I have to choose.
In all honesty I briefly but seriously thought of resigning myself to the fact that I am on this team now. I didn’t want to face the fears or struggles I thought might come up. But, did I really want to check out of my Race with just three mobths left? Did I really want to stop all the growth I had and could experience just because things were not going my way? What happened to all that talk and prayer about finishing strong?
You see resigning is the exact opposite of investing. I cannot choose to love my team if I don’t even want to be with them. I cannot grow unless I choose to let that discomfort happen. Love is a choice, but there has to be action behind that choice.
In that moment, when I thought I couldnt cry anymore and just wanted to sleep, I made a decision that would determine the course of the rest of my Race. I chose to invest in this new team.
You know what happens when you step forward? God begins working in your heart. I can’t say there were no more tears that night or even the next day, but I can tell you that I love my team, and I am excited to begin investing in each other and growing together!
To Team LIGHThouse! Theses next three months are going to be incredible!!
Meet the ladies of team LIGHThouse: Anna, Shannon, Hannah, Tristiaña, Sarah, Alice, and me. Together we are going to show love as individuals and as a team as we learn the art of Living In God’s Heart and Truth.
