So You had a plan all along :) (blog and spoken word)

There was a lingering question that haunted me, nagged me, and called me a failure. It laughed at me, angered me and at times it renedered me helpless.  It was the blasted question of "why?"  I rode that question like a wave.  Sometimes I'd let it go and be ok with the unanswered question and sometimes it'd sock me in the face and dare me to fight back. I couldn't for the life of me figure out why God brought all the way around the world to the place He wanted me all along. The closest to the answer I could get was from my buddy Paul. 

" Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am."  Phil 4:11

That's the point.  I have gone from living in overflow to getting back to my humble beginnings.  Currently I have no job but I'm living with my family in a whole other state and it is clear that God has me hear.  I am having to adjust to country life.  Most ppl that know me know that I'm used to going going going. This is my transition phase. I must say that things are so peaceful and flowing.  God is completely blowing my mind with the fundraising.  Money is coming from all sorts of surprising places.  I'm grateful.  God is changing me so much.  I'm more relaxed and no longer let things stress me.  God is good.  I'm in my "shadow" place, peaceful, serene and listening to heartbeat of my Father.