Wow, how quickly time goes by. I cannot believe that it has been over 2 months since I first posted about the World Race, that I only have a little over 2 months left in Korea, and that in 7 months I will be leaving on this amazing journey to serve Christ in 11 countries.
The past 2 months have been crazy – filled with up’s and down’s, frustration, anxiety and insecurities. I have been struggling with trying to stay motivated for the rest of my time in Korea – just wanting to be done with teaching and at home with my family already. I have been filled with anxiety and worry about the World Race and all the preparation there is before I leave for the USA in May. I have at times still struggled with insecurities – wondering if this is really what God wants me to do and feeling as though I’m not good enough.
At the same time, the last 2 months have had a lot of up’s! I have been amazed and blown away by the support of people, friends and family, both in Korea and back home – and support from people who I would not necessarily have expected to be so supportive. I have to be completely honest and say that when I first had to begin support raising I was completely overwhelmed and daunted by the task and the amount that had to be raised. I felt like there was absolutely no way I could ever raise that amount and that I would surely have to save most of the money myself (in fact I wanted to just completely support myself and skip doing the support raising altogether) BUT WOW!!! Am I so joyful and thankful that I did not do that.
The amazing truth that I have been learning in the last two months is that I am inadequate and I can’t do this alone. John 15:5 – I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. I, Bronwyn Desre Delport am not worthy to be the hands and feet of Christ in the world – I am a sinner, I fall into doubt, I worry and question and at times want to run in the opposite direction. It is only by God’s grace that I am worthy – it is only by His Spirit that I can accomplish the purpose He has planned for my life. I did not choose the World Race, Jesus IS SENDING me on the World Race. He called me and I could not ignore the call in my heart and so I said ‘YES!’ – this in no way means that there has not been a considerable amount of ‘kicking and screaming’ on my end.
This is not MY world race, this is the Lord’s mission – Jesus is sending me to do His work in the world and there is no way that I can do this without Him. I do not have the strength. I do not have the words to say. I do not have the wisdom. BUT I do have the Holy Spirit and Jesus, the Hope of Glory in me. I hear the Lord saying to me “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9).
The even greater truth is that all the time that I have been wishing Korea away (to be done here), I have been neglecting the opportunities to share Jesus on a daily basis with everyone I meet here. Jesus has called each and every one of us to be the light of the world (Matthew 5:13-15; John 12:36). The same God that has called me to go on the World Race next year, is the same God that you and I serve – and He has amazing plans for each and every one of our lives. Wherever you are. Whatever you do. Every single day we wake up we are going out into the mission field – each and every day is an opportunity to live for, serve and make Jesus known in the world.
This has been a humbling lesson for me to learn, God is going to use the World Race to do amazing things in my life and in the lives of the people I will serve with and the people whom we will serve. But our role is only one small part – we are all the Body of Christ – and we all have an equally important role to play.
I have been blown away and amazed by God and His awesome faithfulness since I stepped up and said ‘YES’ to His call. I know that there is no task too big, no amount too large, no worry or insecurity too great for God to meet and overcome! Our God is an awesome God!
Thank you to everyone who is supporting me. The Lord has placed wonderful people in my life, and your prayers and encouragement are helping to prepare me for this journey and keep me focused on the truths God has spoken over my life.
Much love to you all!
