I remember when I was in the third grade my whole class was given brand new dictionaries, and we were told to write the year we would graduate on the front page. It was the first time I heard the year I would be leaving high school with a diploma. As a third grader I obviously didn’t fully grasp just how big of a deal that was. However, I do remember how one day in 2019 my life would completely change.
In 2018, I lived a life of fear and often felt incapable. I feared the future. What was the next step? Incapable was a reoccurring term that kept coming up in my life. I’m just me. Plain old me. Why would God want to use plain, old me? This feeling was something I used to experience a lot. However, recently the Lord has shown me I can accomplish anything with Him by my side. I can choose to see myself as a capable being and be bold.
Old Testament Moses is me. He lived the first forty years of his life in Pharaoh’s household, he had wealth and social prestige. With time, Moses learned of his peoples’ oppression and after fleeing he spent many years tending livestock. He stumbled upon a burning bush, which happened to be God’s surprising call for him.
“Come now therefore, and I will send thee unto Pharaoh, that thou mayest bring forth my people the children of Israel out of Egypt. And Moses said unto God, Who am I, that I should go unto Pharaoh, and that I should bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt?” Exodus 3:9-10
Moses listed excuses to God, but He responded to him saying, “I will be with you.” Moses continued to argue by saying no one would believe him or listen to his voice. He believed he was a “nobody” and nobody was going to listen to a “nobody’s” words. wow I relate big there. Moses raised yet another objection. He was not good with words, he stuttered.
“And who do you think made the human mouth? And who makes some mute, some deaf, some sighted, some blind? Isn’t it I, God? So get going. I’ll be right there with you- with your mouth! I’ll be right there to teach you what to say.” Exodus 4:11-12
Wow! Moses is literally having a face-to-face argument with God giving him excuses on why he should not do this. Moses says “Who am I?” Three words I find myself asking a lot. Those are words of the devil. Lies. I feel so unworthy sometimes, and so incapable of doing what Christians are called to do. How could little me go out and tell others of our great Lord? They’ll laugh. They’ll tease. They’ll disown me. Every possible excuse I could give myself will never account for everything God tells me in spite of that. Regardless he teaches me to be bold in who I am and has given me a safe place in Him. He promises to walk beside me through my fears and my failures. I am His masterpiece and capable of so much when I trust and believe in Him. One of my all time favorite books is ‘Love Does’ by Bob Goff. He said one of the truest things I think I’ve ever heard. “It has always seemed to me that broken things, just like broken people, get used more; it’s probably because God has more pieces to work with.” Whoa!! How cool is that?! I’ve always been told God doesn’t use the best of the best to do His work, but I never truly believed that. Not until God placed a life changing opportunity in my life did I believe that. You are not defined by past mistakes. You are forgiven and have been bought with a price. God isn’t looking for the best, he’s just looking for down-to-earth Jesus lovers who are willing to submit fully and trust in His plan and WOW when I realized that, all of the plans I had for my future suddenly shattered and the new plan that God had for me became way better than anything I could’ve dreamt of!
I am SO stoked for 2019. Thank you SO much for taking your time to read this. Life is fast pace and I understand how many other things you could be doing right now so I’m very appreciative to you all! I continue to ask for your prayers as I’m in the process of fundraising and truly learning what it means to cast my cares on the Lord. I hope you all have a FANTASTIC week!!
Much love,
Brittney
