dear cambodia,
you have been some kinda hard for me. you’ve put me in the hospital for days. you’ve given me the flu and endless hours spent in the clinic. you’ve given me a restless spirit. you’ve made it hard to find peace and joy. i’ve questioned a lot of things while being in your country. why am I here? why is my cup dry instead of working from a place of overflow? i thought it’d be different here. smoother. simpler. one thing has remained constant, though. Abba. i’d be lying if I said it was easy to feel the Lord’s presence every second while being here. however, I know the Lord is not a God who works based off of how I’m feeling. while feelings are valid, they aren’t truth. He is the same God as He was when I was home, as He was in costa rica, as He is here in cambodia. nothing shakes Him. this is something i’ve been growing in and learning while being here.
though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. you will increase my honor and comfort me once more. Psalm 71:20-21
so cambodia, I know you have given me a hard first month being here. you have brought struggles and many tears. but that is not how I will see you. i will see you as a place that has stretched me in big ways. a place that has taught me the Lord doesn’t change based on my feelings. i’ll sit expectant for the Lord to do big things. as is something we should all do, wait with expectancy that the Lord will do big things.
abba, fill my time in cambodia with so much of you. show me what it’s like to love like you do and to have grace. i want to feel your presence. i want more of you God.
much love,
Britt
