Romans 8:15 For you did not recieve the spirit of bondage again to fear , but you recieved the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out Abba Father.
This last month in Swaziland I spent at an orphanage EL Shaddai with many beautiful kids from little babies to 16 year olds. I did a lot of talking with them about their situations and stories. This will do a wonder on you emotionally. Some of their stories are so heartwrenching it is so hard to process the reality that is their lives. All you can really do is go before the Lord and remind yourself He is in control and He is still GOOD. Something the Lord showed me was that even though these tragic things have happened to them, it doesn't define who they are. Their life could have been just a sad story, but what the devil meant for evil in their lives the Lord is RESTORING and turning around for good. They are no loner orphans but they arre children of God, sons and daughters, His precious kids. They are using their gifts and talents such as music and dance and bringing the glory to God in their lives. It is a beautiful thing to see their passsion for God and their heart to know Him and serve Him reguardless of their situation… He is worthy to be PRAISED.. Being at El Shaddai for the month and hearing all the stories led me to thinking a lot about my own parents and my relationship with God.
Interestingly enough, my own earthly father disowned me. Decided I wasn't worth it and too much to handle. I went around hopeless and alone. The enemy wanted my identity to be unwanted, rejected, abandoned. I thought that I had already gone through the healing process and didn't realize this still didn't affect me anymore. I was wrong. God highlighted the different areas where I still carried around hurt and fear of rejection. Addressing this brought so much freedom. God showed me how the devil was trying to rob me and what God wanted to do in my life by dangling this hurt in my face. This is what I have to say to that… I am DONE. NO more stupid freaking devil! I am NEW I am RESTORED. My identity is a daugher of God, wanted, loved. Before Christ I was estranged from God I was a illigitamate child. Now after Christ, I am ADOPTED ACCEPTED CHOSEN to be in the family of God. God is my Father and He loves me God is their Father and He loves them.
"I give it all to You God, trusting that youll make something beautful out of me."
These are lyrics to a song we taught the kids at El Shaddai and they loved it. I love it too. lt really speaks to this last month what God has been doing and is continuing to do in me. I am trusting Him more and more with all these things, surrendering to Him the good bad and ugly in my life . As I do this I know He will work out ALL things for the good of those who love Him. (Romans 8:28 ) Therefore He will make something beautiful out of me and He will do the same with you .
(p.s I am currently in South Africa but am catching up from the lack of internet so this techniquely was from last month even though I am here now ; ) )
