I've been home from the Race for about 3 months now.
Since being home, many of you have asked how my re-entry has been and honestly, it's been a blessedly smooth one for the most part. Of course, I have my moments but there wasn't really a shock and awe daze that struck me once I hit American soil. I asked Jesus to prepare my heart for what I would encounter at home and (surprise) He did.
During my time at home, I've been able to share at many churches and ministries about what the Lord has done in and around me over the last year. In a nutshell: Jesus captivated my heart. But the follow-up question, typically and logically has been, “What’s next?”
Well, I have an answer for you all now but in order to answer that, I need to give you some context.
Part of my reasons for going on the Race was in hopes of discovering an all encompassing passion that I could awaken and then dedicate my life to. But that didn't happen. I was searching for a calling only to discover my calling after I had gotten home. That ‘calling’ was Jesus simply calling me to Himself, as He is all of His children.
And this was a great and profound revelation.
But this didn't help me in the process of figuring out what was next. All I knew was that I wanted to be in a life-speaking, truth-sharing community, that I needed more discipleship and that I wanted to be a part of disicipling others. Through a series of conversations, I was directed to a small group of people who had a similar heart for discipleship and community. As a bonus, we discovered that we had independently been given similar long term dreams from the Lord. How cool is that!?
It appeared that the Lord had brought us together for a purpose. I felt that He wanted me to work with these people, support a vision they had to start a discipleship center in Guatemala, that He wanted me to learn from them and then take this pilot program to other countries and on top of it all, be refined and discipled myself through the process of it all.
This is not what I had expected or desired for myself. I had been visiting Grad schools, studying for the GRE, applying to jobs. I envisioned myself joining the workforce and financially supporting many of the ministries I had encountered.
But this, this did not make logical or financial sense. Going to Guatemala again would mean I'd have to raise support, try and figure how to explain to my parents why I’m not getting a ‘real’ job, I’d have to explain what I'm doing to supporters without a clear vision.
But in my heart I knew this was where Jesus wanted me, with these people, serving this vision. I was confident this was what God had for me next.
Yet I began to question this yesterday. Did I really hear you right, God? I mean this really doesn't make sense. It's not the most logical path for a 24 year old to take. I woke up with a list of questions running through my mind. I tried to quiet them and sit down for a devotional. I opened my book and what I saw is the picture I posted.
God Is Faithful.
Didn't he teach me that ultimately He is calling me to himself?
Haven't I seen him move over and over in situations that didn't initially make sense? Don’t I know His nature?
How could I doubt?
Jesus totally put my questions to a halt. I heard from my team this morning and we are ready to start raising support and moving forward.
So as I prayerfully set out to begin to raise support, I will lay out some thoughts.
I know Jesus wants me in Guatemala for a reason and for a season. I don't know entirely know that reason or how long the season.
I know Jesus will provide a way for me to get there since this is something He continually affirms that He wants.
I desire, more than financial support, committed prayer partners. I am looking for people who will faithfully, daily cover me in prayer. I’m seeking folks who will be willing to listen to the prompting of the Holy Spirit to be up at 3 in the morning, unaware of the chaos that is surrounding me, interceding on my behalf. If you are interested in partnering with me in this way, email me at [email protected]. Let’s chat!
I desire long term committed financial supporters, even if it is small amounts. I believe Jesus is leading me to the field long term and that Guatemala may be a training ground of sorts.
I desire short term, one-time givers too! You guys are awesome and make the funds really come in when you listen to and obey Jesus’ prompting to give.
You can support me by clicking the SUPPORT ME! Link on the bar on the left.
Right now, it’s looking like we will leave in mid-January and I need to have raised a little over $4000 before I can leave. I know that Jesus is faithful to raise all the funds, even during two of the busiest, consumeriest holidays!
Pray about partnering with me again in this next season. Thank you all for your love and support and follow-ups since I’ve been home. I am blessed beyond understanding because my God is so, so faithful.
In His Gloriously Glorious Love,
Brittney Jennings
