Can i be honest with you? …..
Blogging is hard. Its hard to be vulnerable, its hard to be real with yourself and to be real with others.
I mean the enemy has been whispering lie after lie to me as I’ve tried to blog multiple times this week. Telling me that my blogging has to be perfect before i can even post it and what will other people think. Ive also heard things like, how can my story impact anyone else’s life? how can God even use me, especially when I’m having a lot of doubts and fears and dealing with baggage from my past?
It wasn’t until last night, after having some coffee with a few amazing friends from church that the Holy Spirit reminded me that, well, its not about me. Its not what i can do, its not what grammar mistakes i have, or if i think the topics right or not, its about how God will use it. God will allow whoever he wants to read it read it, he will allow it to touch the hearts of those who need it. He also reminds me that this blog is entering each persons life in the midst of his work and that i can only say so much until the Holy Spirit takes over and speaks through the words and stories that have been put on my heart.
He has also reminded me that its okay to be vulnerable, its okay to share my heart. The whole purpose of my testimony is to share it with others so that they will come to know the loving, caring father we have. So that others will experience what he has to offer them.
And the baggage i have, i mean come on, we all have baggage. The enemy wants us to think that were alone and that no one else is experiencing or going through what we are. He wants to completely isolate us and make us think the worst of ourselves. But we need to understand that we are not alone! And our baggage its not something we should constantly dwell on, but its okay for it to surface and its okay to think about it, but when do this we need to let God grab a hold of it so that we can accept the healing he is offering us and embrace who we are to him. By doing so, we are able to experience the Lord and the Holy Spirit in a way we never have before. There is so much freedom in this!!
And by giving our stress and struggles to him it takes all of the pressure off of us. Because when it comes down to it, its all about him. Its his plan, his works, he will do what he needs to do to draw us closer to him and grow us to be more like him.
Be Blessed today and know that you are serving a Lord who already knows your next step and who will guide you and give you an abundant peace when you turn your worries and cares to him. He loves you! 🙂
Psalm 139: 8-10
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
