Let’s get vulnerable! I have spent a lot of time lying to my friends, lying to my loved ones, lying to my team, lying to my squad, and lying to myself. So I’ve spent some time writing a spoken word piece. Here it is “Forgive me for lying.“
Forgive Me For Lying
Excuse me as I sit and pour out my heart to you
The weight of the world has always been on my shoulders
Not from circumstance, but due to choice
See I could have walked a straight and narrow path and I definitely knew better
However the grass was always greener on the other side
What did you expect when roses didn’t grow in my desolate land
So excuse me, forgive me for lying
For pretending that I had it all together
and that somewhere in my heart I thought I was always better
Yep BETTER than all the rest of you
Freedom was in close proximity but still so far away
The Spirit dwelled in me but I never took the time to listen
The way I was living meant that Jesus’ blood was shed for me in vain
So again, forgive me for lying
For pretending that things didn’t bother me and that I was too good to get my feelings hurt
That’s the way Uh Huh Uh Huh I LIKED IT
Paul’s words “you shine as lights in the world” didn’t radiate into me
My heart wasn’t as pure as I portrayed it to be
Satan’s army was camped outside my house and I just let them in
I was a dead woman walking pretending I had no other option
Yea, Forgive me for lying
I was wandering like a zombie just going through the motions
Sensors went off every time I walked into a room
I was afraid of where the Lord would take me
I was afraid of freedom because all I have ever known was fear
Using trust issues as a way to stay in bondage
Running from my purpose and calling
Excuse me, forgive me for lying
Truth is what I have been is
Inconsistent
Full of unforgiveness
Selfish
Self-Righteous
Distracted
Self-Centered
Unteachable
Unapproachable
Unaccountable
Lustful
Prideful
Judging
Controlling
Angry
Living a double life
Lukewarm
Gossip-filled
Worrisome
Bitter
Forgive me for lying
Thing is His blood was shed for my REDEMPTION
His Hands. His Feet. Were nailed to a CROSS
I may mess up repeatedly but the Lord still LOVES ME
I still radiate in the light of the SON
He’s still actively PURSUING me daily
So I don’t need to be afraid because my Creator didn’t make any MISTAKES WITH ME
Forgive me for being Honest
The honest truth is I can’t believe that no one else feels this way
That no one is disappointed in the decisions that they’ve made
It’s time to stop living with distorted eyes
As if we are blind to the things that the Lord requires of us
Living in LIGHT instead of darkness
I can’t be the only person that’s TIRED of living a LIE
So Excuse Me, I can’t be the only person lying
***Maybe I’ll get the courage to actually perform this piece. Thanks for reading***
