The last month has been challenging. All the while I’ve been experiencing great joys and victories, and learning so much that I never guessed I had to learn. I’m writing right now asking for your prayers. I’ve had a traumatic past, and it still affects me today more than I care to acknowledge. I need your prayers because God is showing me the dark and ugly things that have taken up residence in my heart, and the journey to healing seems overwhelming, I feel afraid of what healing will require of me. I’m afraid to walk through these pains again, these painful memories… I’m afraid of falling apart and failing in my efforts to let go of them all.
I know this is something I have to walk through to experience freedom and healing, and I want to walk into the next season full of liberty in its fullness. I have been struggling with pain, insomnia, nightmares and spiritual attack. I’m not 100% when these plague me, and it can be hard even to lean into God because I feel so frenetic and distracted.
God is SO GOOD, and he hasn’t left me abandoned in all of this. There is so much hope in my heart, I believe I will see victory soon; but I could use your support while I get there. I have an opportunity coming up to speak to teenagers about dealing with trauma, and finding hope and direction in their Lives; so I think this is a great thing, and I firmly believe the spiritual heaviness is a sign I’m doing something right.
So please, keep me in your prayers.
