“Through all of the waiting that does not make sense she trusts fully in the Lord to guide her through this.” ~Morgan Harper Nichols
I don’t know about you, but I am not always the biggest fan of waiting. Sometimes I honestly don’t mind it. Other times it really gets under my skin. I think the latter is most true when I don’t know the WHY behind the waiting. When I don’t get the WHY, I get impatient.
In my last blog I talked about how good God is, and how He has been answering prayer in my life recently. If you haven’t read it yet do it now. (For real stop reading and go read it here….I’ll wait for you to get back.) In case you didn’t listen here is a quick recap. God is good. He provides. He answers prayer.
I have recently found myself getting impatient with God. Why? Because, in answering some of my prayers He has told me to wait. Wait in healing of wounds of my past. Wait in the easing of my pain. Wait for the fulfillment of desires He has placed in my heart. Wait to go. I get impatient because I don’t always understand WHY God is making me wait for things that are good, it doesn’t always make sense. However, in the waiting, God is providing answers to this question. In the waiting He wants to grow my trust in Him, dependence on Him, and love for Him. He is calling me to wait to reveal more of His character to me. He is guiding me to understand the beauty that comes in living a life fully and completely dependent on His love and grace to get me through. In the waiting He desires that I trust Him to guide me through.
“We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God: those who are called according to His purpose.” ~ Romans 8:28
I find such comfort in this verse when I think of the waiting. He is working the discomfort, the unfulfilled desires, the tears, and the pain all for my good. I want to share with you one way God is working in my waiting. As you know when I got accepted I was planning on leaving in January. In preparing to go God has been doing an incredible work in my life. He has called me to face things in my life that I have not faced before. He has called me to press into my pain and to let Him heal the wounds I have medicated for so many years. This process isn’t quick or easy. Over the past month I have been praying about when would be the best time to go on The World Race. Would it be best to leave in January or wait and leave in June? Well, I am sure you can guess, but I have decided to push back the trip and leave in June. It wasn’t the easiest decision to make, but now that it has been made I am so stinking excited to be waiting.
I will be writing another blog soon listing the new countries I will be going to and more details about that trip. In the meantime I ask that you pray specifically for me in the waiting. Pray that I remain patient in the waiting, that I continue to press into the work that the Lord is doing in my life, and that I can learn to fully trust Him through this season. It is my prayer for you that if the Lord is calling you into waiting, or whatever He may be calling you into, that you have the courage to take the step of faith and press in knowing that you can trust God in it.
