As time is getting closer to coming home, I can’t help thinking about what’s next. I am coming home from this 11-month incredible experience that has been hard at times, but so good, and I have grown and learned so much. So what do I do next? The Lord has started to reveal possibilities to me about what could be in store, but I feel like I have so many potential options I get overwhelmed. Sometimes I think having so many ideas and options isn’t always a good thing, but it’s better than not having any. So at the beginning of this month, I started looking into opportunities the Lord put on my heart for after the race. I started to take control of what I thought I should be doing. The Lord very clearly spoke to me this month about being still with him. He told me to push pause on the future talk and just be present with him and others this month. We are in the desert this month, and we have a lot of down time. The Lord wants me to spend it with Him, and not on what’s next. It’s hard when there are some really exciting possibilities in my future.
I’m not completely sure which direction God will lead me in, but the idea of some things he has put on my heart makes me really excited! So being told to stop was hard, especially when others around me have been getting things figured out for when they go home. I want to know exactly what God has planned next for me. I guess I will just have to wait.
That is what the Lord has been teaching me this month, and I will probably be growing in this area even after I return home. He is teaching me to TRUST Him. The Lord showed me this verse this week:
I get to practice the patience that God has been growing me in all year. 
I know God has big things planned for me. I may not know exactly what that looks like now, and that’s okay. God has given me a lot of ideas, but I don’t want to decide anything now. Things could look very different once I get home. I want to leave room for God to change things or open different doors. So I am choosing to trust him, knowing that He already knows where I’ll be and what I’ll be doing. I am learning to rest in the peace that comes from completely trusting God, knowing that all things will be revealed in His timing. It is really hard some days because how could I not want to start planning what’s next. So I’ve come to the conclusion that all I can do is trust him.
