QUITE ON SET!!!
ROLLING!!!
BACKGROUD ACTION!!!
ACTION!!!!!
So right now, I’m sitting in a hotel room in Atlanta. My body is tinted with a dark red color because I have been working on the set of the movie “HALL PASS” w Owen Wilson, the begining part of this week. We wrapped up our scene last night thank God! It’s only mid week and I’m SOOO TIRED! But luckily I have a break before call tonight… The rest of the week I will be working on the set of “THE VAMPIRE DIARIES” .
And while this lifestyle has been what I have dreamed of since I was 3 years old, I don’t want it anymore. It’s so sad that I’m actually admitting that. My family and friends have put so much time’ energy, not to mention money into giving me the time and attention to really develop and train my talents…
So it’s hard and sad for me to say, “Hey, just when everything is getting good… I don’t want it anymore.”
I don’t know how to explain it. On the set this week all I thought about is the race. And how none of what I was doing was really getting me toward my goal of going on the race. This whole trip is about surrendering EVERYTHING to GOD. And it started when I applied for the race. It’s been a long road since OCT… But fact is, now… It’s crunch time. So as soon as I wrap up this week on the TV show… I’m quitting. I’m quitting my job that I have worked at for 2 years. Those people there are my FAMILY. I love them so much and it’s going to be the last thing I break away from before we go. But I have already broken away from everything else so this is just the last little part.
SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO SCREAM THOUGH!!!!
CUTT!!!!
THAT WAS PERFECT BUT LETS DO IT ONE MORE TIME!!!!!
RESET!!!!
ACTION!!!!!!!!
Some people sometimes try and convince me that my calling in life is with them. But I’m not happy and I know I won’t be until I actually do something significant like help people. Sometimes, it shows in big ways and then sometimes in small ways. But I know in my heart that this is not what I am called to do (Right now anyway). Even though we are getting more work, growing, getting a following, and about to have a TV show of our own… All that is nothing without the race.
I have listened to some people’s responses and I know they thnk I am insane… Hell, maybe I am insane. But whatever… I’m going on the world race and that is all I know. And even though it doesn’t make sense, it’s what I HAVE TO DO… =(
And other people have said things like “God gave you those talents, and now you are running from them”….
The ironic thing I see with this is I’m running towrds what God has called me to do… Not away from it.
Truth is, I’m not sure fame and fortune are Godly things… Actually, I’m pretty sure they’re not.
Some of the things people do and say seriously crack me up now… I don’t see how people can spend so much money on silly things and I can’t believe I used to love shoes so much when a TON of kids dont even have one pair!
I’m already a different person….
Can’t wait to see who I will become!
On the way down here I met a christian rock band that was playing outside of WALMART! They were raising money for gas for their summer tour. The leave this Sunday. If I do things in the arts (Which I believe I always will do) It will be for this reason… God’s kingdom. I’m so sick of the negativity I could scream. No person should ever feel like they aren’t good enough for any reason and that’s all this business does is tell you that over and over again… But if it was for a purpose, then I would be able to survive…. But I know in my heart what I do with my job are simply selfish. So here is to playing at Wal-Mart for the rest of my life! Not sure where God will take me… But I’m down for the ride! =)
But anyway…. I will be in Africa when HALL PASS comes out in Jan so you should check it out just to look for me while I’m away. Also, the episode I’m filming tonight won’t be on before I leave either… So check it out!
Love and Vampires,
Britt.
MARTINI SHOT!!!!!
PS, Here are a few pics I have decided to put up to dedicate to those people who have stood by me and made my life for the past 2 years SO MUCH STINKING FUN!!!! I love you all at UREKA TALENT AND MODELING!!! You all are my BEST FRIENDS! And I LOVE YOU AND WILL MISS YOU NEXT YEAR MORE THEN YOU KNOW!!!!
The love bus! Ha! So many memories in this SUV… I’m going to miss laughing, singing, driving, and just acting goofy in this thing!!!!
To my students, I know I have made most of you cry more then once. I have been so hard on you the past 2 years but we have also learned so much haven’t we? I have only been hard on you because I believe in you so much! You all will deff be missed and I totally plan on doing acting workouts with tons of kids all over the world, but everytime I make those silly faces I will be thinking of you all. Love you.
Our first “POSH POSH” event! LOOK HOW FAR WE HAVE COME!!! HA!
Thank you so much for showing us the “HIGH LIFE” Mr. Dominique.
CEDRIC, You CHANGED MY LIFE… I love you… You’re my hereo….. That’s all I can say….
Nick, I love you so stinking much! I couldn’t ask for a better friend. You are such an amazing guy! When I have a bad day, all I will have to do is think about some of the crazy stupid stuff we have all done and it will make me feel better. I don’t know how I’m going to survive on my long roadtrips without you! I’m going to miss your hugs the most, even though they have been known to hurt! I don’t know what I’m going to do without having your shoulder to pass out on or your brains. You always have this way of showing up at the right time to cheer me up. (Like when I can’t figure something out and I have minimum time to do a task online and you magically appear to fix it, AND TO LAUGH AT ME!) You’re an amazing guy and I can’t wait to get back and hear about all of the stories that happened when I was gone. I LOVE YOU NICKEY!!!
Stephanole!!!! I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!!! You’re on your way baby! Don’t you dare give up while I’m gone because it’s going to happen! You are the coolest guy ever and I’m so happy and blessed to have you as my co worker and not to mention best buddy! I’m worried I will get back and you won’t even know who I am! You seriously bring a smile to my face everyday… It will be so hard not being alongside you and everyone else! I won’t be able to go to ci ci’s for a whole year! =(
HAHAHAH! You’re amazing and I will miss you like crazy. I love you Stephy!
Joyce, AKA MISS FABULOUS!!! I can’t believe I have known you for 10 years now. You are my big sister. I love you… And this agency is really going places and you are a HUGE part of that. You bust your tail for your dream and don’t think that people don’t notice. You are my favorite cougar. HAhaha! I don’t know what life will be like without you complaining about people’s clothes or watching you flirt in action! hahaha! Life will deff be different. I love you, and I will miss you. Thank you for being such and amazing friend and confidant! (Even though we have gotten into trouble a lot) HEHEHE… IT WAS SOOO WORTH IT! I love you and will miss you like crazy!!! CI CI’S!!!!
Reka, this is the hardest goodbye of all. It has been an honor and a pleasure working for you the past 2 years. Thank you so much for letting me into your world. Girl, we have had some crazy times haven’t we? You best be getting on the move about learning how to skype. I better keep this short and simple before I start to cry. You have changed my life and it’s been amazing growing up and learning who I am while being alongside such a power house woman like you. You have taught me so much about being a woman, about love, friends, relationships, and God. I will miss our long convos…. Esp the ones when I come to work and we completely lose track of time and next thing you know it’s lunch time so we go eat! But, we have gotten a lot done the past 2 years. Just look at us. I love you so much… You know that…. You’re an amazing boss, agent, and most importantly SISTER. I LOVE YOU…..
CUTT!!!!
THAT’S A WRAP!!!!!
