$10,704.25
That is the number that has been floating in my head the past few days. While I was in Haiti, I was so distracted by the work my team and I were doing that I was able to forget about support raising for a while and boy was it nice! Since being in the Dominican though, the thoughts have come back to my focus … (And since the fund raiser that happened back home was a flop)…
I have been fighting the attacks of discouragement from the enemy on this even though it’s been a tough battle so far. But this whole time I have been asking God, “What can III do to make things better?? What can I do to get money in my account??? How can I make the money and not get sent home in the middle of my ministry???” These questions have been in my head for months now.
One thing I am having to learn here on the race is that “I” can’t do anything. Especially by myself. This whole trip is about relying on GOD right? The fact that I’m noticing the things that are hard to give over to him is proof that I’m learning and growing. God has taught me so much already and I KNOW that THIS is where I am supposed to be. I have learned life long lessons in the past month that back home could have taken me years to a lifetime to learn…. Some of the things I have learned are as follows.
I’m not always right.
It’s so much more fun to care about others above myself. The blessings are so much better when I forget about “MY” needs…
I’ve learned to not have any expectations. This is a BIG thing on the race. If you come into it with expectations of ANY kind prepair to be changed, disappointed, angry, overwhelmed, and completely miss the point of why you are where you are.
Time doesn’t matter to me anymore… American’s have this way of wanting to plan their lives by the second and that is simply… well… An “AMERICAN” thing. Things are so much more fun and exciting when you don’t know or care what you are doing that day… All you know is it’s going to be AWESOME!
Every single day is a choice and every single day we have decisions to make on how we want to live our life. Here, on the race, you are given the opportunity to chose into things that you once may have thought as weird, unproductive, different, hard, challenging, and just plain strange. But by doing these things and opening up to them you get the blessing of seeing God in a whole new light and way.
I’ve learned to not be weirded out by naked babies and children. Clothing is overrated. Ha.
I’ve learned that seeing people pee on the street is just something normal here… as we are taught at training camp… “Some things are not wrong, or right… They’re just different.
I’ve learned that my new love languages are getting my hair done, braided and brushed by orphans or villiage kids and also I’m a big fan of awkward situations. =)
I’m learning that not all men are evil and want something in return from them being nice to me.
I’m learning that God loves me enough to have a purpose and a plan for my life that he reveals a little bit more to me each and every single day.
I’m learning that not all girls are backstabbing and that there are some amazing women out there that I have found and I’m honored to call my sisters!
I’m learning that not all christians are fake. They’re people too and even though they might mess up… I’m learning how to love them.
I’m learning that I have a heart for kids. I never was really sure about it but now I KNOW! Especially trouble making boys… They make me melt. Ha!
I’m learning to heal from things that have happened from my past, are happening presently, and will happen in the future.
I’m learning a lot about LOVE. How God loves me, how to love others, and what love looks like coming from others and how to honestly receive it.
I hope you’re all doing well. I just wanted to take the time to share with you some of my thoughts on this. Please continue to pray for me and fund raising because I AM WHERE I’M SUPPOSED TO BE! And just specifically pray that I have a peace about money and that I nor my family will have to worry about it anymore because in the long run, money is really nothing in God’s eyes… Not even $10,704.25!!!
My team and some of the other teams living in our house are fasting tonight thru tomorrow and praying about this situation about the money specifically and also having a day long worship service! I’m super excited to see how God is going to work thru this situation and reveal himself but please keep us in your prayers. Know that I am praying for you daily (Every single person who reads my blogs even if I don’t even know you)….
Love,
Britt
