God has been revealing so much to me about who I am in him. I have really been struggling with a lot of things lately. I felt like God was ignoring me. I was spending my time doing everything else that needed to be done but neglected to spend any time with Him. Then when I would feel like spending time with him I would feel bad because I hadn’t been spending time with him so I would push it off until tomorrow but tomorrow kept getting pushed off. I soon realized that I was keeping myself from Him. He was not ignoring me. I had a very long night telling God about who I am not but wish to be someday, the mistakes I feel that I have made, and how he has “let me down”. After I stopped my whining and crying it hit me! God spoke to my heart! He is always with me. He has a plan for my life, it may not be the plan that I would choose but it is a perfect plan. He is the king of the universe and the lover of my soul. I am his child and he loves me. Those words, what power they hold. Our God is so big yet so intimate. He has been there the whole time and I chose not to stop and listen to his words for me. I was busy telling Him my plans and why I was upset. While it is fine to talk to God and tell him your heart we also have to take the time to listen. I recently went to a service where the message was about tuning into God. The preacher spoke on how we say we can’t hear God but sometime we are not tuning into the right frequency and sometimes we just need silence. I needed a few moments of silence in order to listen.
