Hello Friends!
As many of you know I type majority of the time exactly how I sound and that hasn’t changed since I have been home so buckle up! Here we go! I am alive and doing… at least I think fairly well. Although there have been some pretty heavy moments, God comes through like my homie just in the right time. I love his word y’all. When I feel like I can’t hear him, all I have to do is flip that thing open and it just seems as though he guides the pages every time. Incredible. Love him.
HOW AM I?
Being back has been quite a whirl wind. I mean honestly I haven’t really felt like I am back but I also have felt like I am back. It feels like I was gone only a day but I was gone for a year. Everything is the same but everything is so different. I am the same on the outside but so different on the inside. Confusing… I know right?
In the last month I’ve been seeing people, traveling on vacation with best friends, had a coming home party, visiting family in Houston, and I just got back last week from my last debrief with my family/ team in Gainesville, Georgia. I am not exactly sure how I feel if I am really being honest. Depression isn’t something that I just toss around but there have been signs that I’m struggling in that area. I feel like I should be feeling more but really I am numb to the debriefing thing, as you all already know from my previous updates. Trying to debrief in the moment like… “Umm.. yeah I feel fine. Right God?! God am I feeling something? What do you want me to get from this past month?” Give me 2 more months and I’ll really let you know.
WHAT’S NEXT?!
So what’s next? Am I done with the “adventure”? Am I done with “my trip”? Am I done with my “vacation”? The question is really, “Am I done with doing the work of the Lord in a none boring environment and living out the gospel in another country that has the most unreached people in the world?” And the answer is NOPE, not at all. And if you feel bored with what you are doing with your life I CHALLENGE you to ask God to speak to you! Because I know he didn’t create you to be bored! If you aren’t reaching people, look around. He has placed you in a spot for a reason and a purpose! This life is so fun and exciting as a Christian! I pray not all of you quit your job and have to raise funds because then we would all be in trouble. I mean unless God rained money down from the heavens, which he could do! Remember the mana?! So I do appreciate those that love their job that brings in income. Listen, I could write about this topic for days but for now I will leave it at… THANK YOU for being obedient and supporting those who GO like myself.
Ok back to it, what am I doing next? I have a round about answer for you! You’re welcome. So, I have been praying and seeking out the Lord… A LOT. Majority of it isn’t even “lead me God, show me!” because that actually came pretty easy this past year and He made it obvious what I was suppose to do. When you do what you are suppose to be doing there is just something in you that feels right and that’s what this last year was. It just felt right. It may not come as a surprise to you that I have been called to ministry. I am called to be a missionary. I am called to GO. I remember about 4 months ago where saying this would have been difficult for me but I find this to be easy peasy! Praise him!
WHERE AM I GOING?
I have been specifically called, or I’ll say it this way, the Lord imprinted this burning desire/passion, I mean a DEEP DEEP love for the unreached people of this beautiful world and specifically muslims. I mean the phrase “chases me down, fights till I am found” really means “Brittani is driving through Andys custard for the first time and she jumps out of the car and chases down muslims to shares the love of Christ.” I’m not bragging, but trying to give you a clear vision of this. I LOVE ice cream… like for real and I didn’t care about no Ice cream at that time.
So, you are asking right about this moment, “Why is she going if there are Muslims here?!” Shoot, you might be asking, “Why is she going because there are so many people here that need Jesus?!” The unreached… that’s my heart. what does that mean? An unreached or least-reached people is a people group which there is no indigenous community of believing Christians with adequate numbers and resources to evangelize this people group without outside assistance. Outside assistance being… ME! Brittani Toole with Jesus of course guiding me. Usually there is less than 2% Christians in those regions. I know right? Fun! So in the states 70% of the population calls themselves Christian. That is MORE than enough for a nonbeliever to walk into a store and bump into a believer (you and me) and for me and you to share the gospel with them.
I have also been called to America. How does that work? How am I called to these other people but still to my own people? I have a heart for you. I have a heart to inform you. I have a passion to speak to you. I have an assignment to tell you that YOU dear American have a huge impact on the rest of the world. You can do things to change the world over there through prayer, giving and sharing the gospel here with people. You never know who is going to GO and reach “every tribe and tongue”. Pretty sure Bo Jackson didn’t think taking me to Haiti for the first time would result in this, but he was RELENTLESS. Be RELENTLESS Y’ALL! Picking up what I am throwing down? Hope so. You all… every single one of you who pray over me, encourage me and give to me are seriously investing in the Kingdom. So, no worries y’all. I am going so Jesus will come back sooner than later! 😉
Matthew 28: 18-20
Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
Matthew 24:14
“and the gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony TO ALL NATIONS, AND THEN THE END WILL COME.”
MY HEART/ VISION
I think coming back home and being here for a month now has definitely given me some serious clarity on a lot of things. One being, this isn’t “home for me”, in fact no where is home on this earth. I love to speak in front of you and share stories of what God has done. I love women’s ministry. I LOVE seeing the church move in the spirit. I love teaching the word of God. I love evangelism and seeing people come to know Jesus. I love coffee. I love hospitality. I love to see people come to know the person who died for them! I love meeting new people!
I would love to go meet the needs of people in the middle east/ Africa (muslim parts) / Eurasia, while traveling back here every 6 months or so. I love to meet needs, so traveling and supplying clean water and helping women with Hygiene make me excited. I would love to open a coffee shop here in the states that is informative about what is happening over there – A coffee shop that supports missions. A coffee shop that is open and available to people sharing the gospel in it. Somewhere people feel comfortable to sit and stay ALL day if they want and be poured into by the staff there.
That is it for now. I love all of you so very much. I know this was a long one but hopefully I kept ya on your toes.
Love , B
