I mean really break. . . for example. . I dated a great guy for the better half of six years. . and ending that. . I’ve felt my heart break. . more than once. . . it still throbs with pain in my chest at times. . .
OR
How about loosing a friend in a car accident? I’ve experienced that too many times, I’m not sure why anyone still hangs around me. . . I feel like bad luck almost. .
a broken heart tends to draw the air out of your chest causing you to gasp in a state of panic and even do so much as cause chest pain. . . Yes I’ve experienced this sort of heart break.
BUT
As I look into the mirror, standing in my 5 bedroom home, I feel broken. . . I feel broken for people whom I encounter daily. . that endure this sense of ‘entitlement’ revealing the flesh of this world in radiant colors. . . Others with 5 bedroom homes. . 30K+ cars complaining about the driver in front of them driving too slow. .
I feel broken that I don’t even have to leave the United states, a place of opportunity and home to the wealthiest people in the world. . . to see the spiritual and physical needs of others not being met at such an astounding rate.
I am broken looking at myself, to have given the past 8 months of my energy. . to self pity. . because a relationship ended. . to have doubted God when my plans for the future changed. . and broken that my selfishness caused my ministry to slam on the breaks. . .
Thank you Lord for healing. . and eyes to see beyond a guy. . . the mind to know that you are in control. . and have paved a way that allows for ALL OF MY BIGGEST DREAMS to be coming true. . according to YOUR Will. . . not according to my own designated path! Thank you for calling me to something so much greater than myself!!!!
B is for broken, but I ask that you make me beautiful. . . change my heart to break for what breaks yours. . . I ask for your sight. . that I may encourage and love the leaper . .
Today B is for broken. . .
Tomorrow B is for bruised . . .
One day B will stand for Beautiful. . .You Lord are Beautiful.
