As many of you know at training camp my leadership team made the decision to make me treasurer. I honestly thought they were making a huge mistake. I couldn’t understand why they thought I would make a good treasurer. Truth be told they didn’t know that I always struggled in math. They just prayed about it and God told them to make me treasurer.
After training camp, I took the couple months in between training camp and launch to really pray about it. I still was really uneasy about it but I decided to trust God and give the role of treasurer 100%. At launch I got more treasurer training. After the training I felt more comfortable taking on the role.
I’ve been through a lot of ups and downs as treasurer the past couple of months. I ultimately came to the decision to move on and pass the role on to someone else. It was not an easy decision.
Part of the reason I didnt pass the role on in the beginning was that there was no one else to take it. When Jacob, and Lauren joined the team I had the chance to give one of them the role of treasurer. During the 2 weeks prior to them coming I was having an internal battle with myself. It took every instinct in me to not just quit. I knew at the same time that I had grown so much and that God wanted me to stay in the role. I ended up keeping it for another two months before I came to the decision to give it to Lauren.
The first 4 months of the race were not easy. Every single waking moment I was thinking about treasurer. About how much I wanted to quit. About how terrified I was that I would lose 100s of dollars. It was exhausting. I really let the stress of it get to me. I kept thinking of the worst case scenarios. The stress led to multiple panic attacks.
At the same time I grew so much. The biggest thing I’ve learned is that I’m capable of so much more than I think I am. As it says in
Nehemiah 8:10 “The joy of the Lord is my strength.”
I learned a lot about how much I can rely on God. He is my strength and always will be.
One thing I had a hard time with was thinking that I quit the role of treasurer. I really hate quiting things before I have given it 100%. In all reality I never quit. I kept going even when times were hard. When it came down to it I prayed about it before I handed it over to Lauren. It was ultimately the right decision to give the job to Lauren. I know that my time as treasurer was meant to happen. It gave me more confidence. I will never forget my time as treasurer.
