As many of you know this month was not what I was expecting it to be. Nothing about this year has been what I expected it to be but this month was far from it. Instead of continuing on with my team to the west coast after Wisconsin I flew to Alabama. Instead of looking at it as punishment or me failing at my dream I looked at it as a beginning. Which is why my word for this month is:
New
This month was a new start for me. God gave me a chance to take a break and reflect on the past year as well as myself. This month hasn’t been easy. When I first was given the chance to come to Alabama I thought there would be other kids here my age and that I would have more ministry opportunities but that’s not what God had in store for me. God knew that I would be coming to Alabama and that I would need time to reflect on the past year more than I would need to have ministry opportunities. It took me a while to come to this realization but once I did I saw the beauty in it.
God allowed me time to heal. Month 8 was extremely difficult and I felt my mental health going down the drain. When my leadership team was finding me somewhere to go they initially were having a hard time finding somewhere for me to go. Then they thought about the hosts I’m currently with. God knew I needed to be here in Alabama. That I needed to be with my current hosts to help me through the next couple of months.
Now here I am a month and a half later feeling stronger than ever. When I initially came to Alabama I was told that I would have a chance of joining another team but I was recently told that that is no longer an option. My leadership and I also came to the conclusion that it wouldn’t be a good idea to go to final debrief. But I know God put me here for a reason so that I could continue healing. As it says in Isaiah 40:29-
“He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.”
