I recently shared about personal suffering {There May Be Tears} and what I learned during that season {What I Learned In The Great Storm} but I would like to – or need to – expose the main reason behind that suffering.
I’ve had a ‘learning disability’ since 2nd grade. I didn’t let this keep me from obtaining my bachelors degree and graduating college. I just had to work twice as hard. I discovered a gift I had (investing) the year after high school and so I passed my stockbrokers license at the age of 19 (along with two other securities licenses). I immersed myself with work. For a time, it was the only thing I really enjoyed.
Despite complete ignorance (and malpractice) by a doctor, I was incorrectly diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) in high school. There is a large difference between having a learning disability and having ADD. I never had ADD.
However, the doctor prescribed Adderall for my misdiagnosed ADD, which by the way was just a learning disability. Little did I know this drug, an amphetamine, is so addictive and prone to abuse it is in the same drug classification as cocaine.
Over the years I created not only a dependence on Adderall, but I was regrettably addicted to it and abused it. There is a drug epidemic in the U.S. and the New York Times did a great article about this epidemic (click the title to read) Concerns About A.D.H.D. Practices and Amphetamine Addiction
One evening last September I threw all my Adderral down the toilet and stopped cold turkey. What followed was utter hell. I could barely function and was in a mental coma for a few months. But I survived and God broke my addiction.
This was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
