"Hear my cry, O God, listen to my prayer; from the end of the earth I call to you when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I." -Psalm 61:1-2
Or in one song that we sing at my church quite often:
'And when my heart is OVERWHELMED, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I!'
I feel like quite a few of my blog posts have been along these same lines, but it is just the honest truth in one sense…I am feeling a little overwhelmed right now.
I feel like I could faint.
I have had some instances lately that people have been unintentionally discouraging about the race (even some very close to me). As much as things people say don't usually get to me, I feel like I am being battered. 'What is you don't make your deadline?' 'Shouldn't you start thinking about a back-up plan?' 'What will you do if you don't go?'
I feel like I could faint.
Sometimes it is easy to look around and focus more on what is NOT happening, than what IS. And when I focus on what is not happening, there is A LOT, and there is what can seem like A LOT of funds left go to get this thing rolling. And finaces my friends, if we let ourselves get wrapped up them, will just kill you inside and slowly strip away your joy.
I feel like I could faint.
THEN, every time, without fail, Jesus zooms in and wraps me in His arms and says,
"Bri, I've got this! YOU NEED TO TRUST ME. I love you. And I've not brought you this far to abandon you. Never."
Freeze a second.
I feel like I could faint, haha.
WOW, how many times do I doubt? How many times do I let the circumstances around me grow and grow to the point of them surpassing my knowing of the provision of my GREAT GOD? It is in times like this that I just thank God for being so patient with me, and thank Him for never getting frustrated with me. Sometimes I think, wow, I must be so exasperating, haha
I feel like I could faint.
My Lord, YOU are so amazing. I am in awe when I LOOK at how much you have already done in this journey. When I SEE all that you have already provided for me. How you are SO much higher than I am, my Rock. I am so grateful I can run to You when my heart is feeling overwhelmed and heavy loaded, and I can just empty it all out and cast my burdens on You. All because you care for me and have loved me with an everlasting love.
WOW. I feel like I could faint can rest.
