I have always considered myself a dreamer, but I am realizing that I believe I have not allowed myself the space to truly dream.
I am really very good at thinking up ideas and imagining what could be. But when it actually comes to executing those ideas and going for it, that is where I do not get far.
Since being on the race, I have really for the first time begun to wholly open myself up to the fact that God is fully capable of doing more with my life than I can fathom. It is like a new understanding that He truly can do all things. With that I have a deeper trust in Him and am now in a place of saying to Him, "Okay Jesus, as I learn what the desires and dreams are that you have placed in my heart (which really are in a way pieces of Your heart that you have put inside of me) and begin to explore those areas, show me what You want me to do with them. I am so EXCITED."
So here I sit, heart wide open, eyes uplifted, ears inclined to the Father's heart, ready and anticipating what He wants to accomplish in my life. I am His vessel and being His vessel brings me so much joy.
In fact, I have already done so many things that I never even dreamed I would actually do.
Like, learning to play the guitar, and singing in front of people, also singing into a microphone. And living within 15 feet of a turkey! (who we named Theodore Juan Adonai, primero (the 1st)…but we call him Theo)
I know I have been here on the race for many reasons
- I have learned SO MUCH about myself (maybe more than I wanted to know, hehe, joking)
- I have learned a lot about relationships with other people and how I can be a better friend and sister
- Jesus has revealed new levels of who He is to me through my squad, my teammates, our ministry hosts, and the people we have had the privalege of ministering to and getting to know
- I see Jesus everywhere I go, in everyone around me
I am a lot of the time at a loss for words, because I am so utterly overwhlemed and blessed.
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And all of this to say, I know without a shadow of a doubt that God has purposefully put me here for these past few months.
He has brought me this far, and He will continue to grow me whether I am here on the race or elsewhere. The race has definitely jump-started a new life for me though, I am not the same person and will keep changing indefinitely.
So my God is fully aware that I need over $3000 to keep going on this journey. I have every confidence that He will provide the remainder if He wants me to continue on.
I ask you to join with me in prayer, and also to consider donating to help me stay on the race if God so leads you.
Really check your heart, and if He would have you give something, anything at all, then be obedient. But if He is not leading you to give to help me, PLEASE do not just give out of obligation.I would MUCH rather be at home or elsewhere and in His will than be going around to 8 more countries out of His will. Of course I want to be here, I love this life so much, but I definitely am one who knows from experience how God can change our plans sometimes. So I will happily be here as long as He provides for me to do so and wants me to be.
Thank you for all of your love and support!
