To everyone in my life:
I have a lot I could say, a lot I could write about right now, yet at the same time I find myself a little lost for words.
I am so overwhelmed at the goodness of the Lord and what He has done over the past 4 months on the World Race. Awestruck at what He has done in my heart, the hearts of my incredible N-Squad family, and in the hearts and lives of people around the world we have come to love so dearly and have learned so much from.
I write today to share with you what God has placed on my heart this past month.
To get straight to the point, the Lord told me, in His loving and patient way, while in Romania that my time on the World Race had come to a close. “Brianna, it’s time,” He told me.
At first I found myself a bit shocked, then a little frustrated and confused. 'Here we go again Lord,' was my first reaction to Him. You see, because the past few years of my life, God has led me to go into a number of different situations and then after awhile He led me out of them. And while sometimes in the moment it did not always make a lot of "sense" to me, after the emotions subsided I could really see His hand on me and in the decision.
So while my first thought was, 'Here we go again', it was slightly lighthearted because while this is one of the hardest calls I have had to make in my life, I felt His peace inside of me regarding the change. So my feelings of frustration changed to thankfulness to God. I still do not know all of the reasons why He wanted me to come back to the States at this time, but what I do know is that I heard his voice tell me to do it. It was so undeniably clear, I had no doubts about the choice from the first second.
God's peace is a beautiful thing. I am so filled up and overflowing with that peace right now- His overwhelming peace which surpasses all understanding.
I have to be honest with you and say that I do not know what is ahead for me. I cannot claim to have a lot of explanation about this situation. All I know is that the same loving, guiding voice that whispered to me to embark on the race a year ago is the same voice that has brought me back home at this time. Do I understand why entirely? No. Do I wish I did? Sometimes. But most of the time I am glad I don't.
You see, the ways of the Lord are so much higher than our own, and so much bigger and vast
than we can comprehend. I REFUSE to lean on my own understanding any longer in my life. Because that's just it-it is NOT my life. I chose to surrender everything I am to Him when I chose to follow Him. And my life is not about me- the Father has things in mind that are so much bigger than us.
So here I am, trusting. thankful. overwhelmed with peace. a little sad and missing N-Squad.
curious to see what is ahead, because CLEARLY God has something up His sleeves.
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I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT IN THIS JOURNEY.
I tear up thinking about it. The past 4 months would not have happened without your obedience, generosity, and belief in what God wanted to accomplish in and through me on the Race.
I have seen Jesus in ways I never imagined I would.
I have laughed until my sides burned and ached.
I have cried until I was sure there were no more tears. And then I cried some more.
I have hugged some of the most beautiful children in the entire world.
I have seen people healed, inside and out.
I have seen love displayed in beautiful ways.
I have met some of the most humble, selfless and giving people in the whole world.
I have learned so much about relationships.
I have learned so much about myself.
I have learned I have so much work on.
I have loved, learned how to love deeper, and been loved in so many ways.
I know that even if you do not always see the fruit of your labor, God is at work.
….and oh so much more.
THANK YOU N-SQUAD FOR TEACHING ME MORE ABOUT WHAT IT MEANS TO TRULY BE JESUS. God is on the move in all of you and will continue to change lives through you.
Thank you my friends and family for sending me, thank you for supporting me, thank you for
praying for me, thank you for believing in me. Most of all thank you for believing in God's call in my life.
I am not the same person that left the USA in January.
I cannot wait to share the past 4+ months of my life with you.
Be home soon.
I know there are great things ahead, whatever they may be. God never said that our lives would be easy ones, but He told us He would never leave us, ever.
This may be the epilogue of my World Race, but it is a title page for the next chapter.
Love from the bottom of my heart,
Brianna Nicole Robinson
"…Because He lives I can face tomorrow, because He lives all fear is gone, because I know He holds the future, and life is worth the living JUST BECAUSE HE LIVES…!"
