abandon: “give up completely (a course of action, a practice, or a way of thinking).”
I’m currently spending some alone time with the Father during Sabbath hours, and I feel the Lord calling me to share about some of the things I’ve been learning while I’ve been here. I’m sitting on a hard ground in the middle of the woods with leaves and bugs all around me. the temperature is currently 64 degrees, and the sun isn’t out. my butt really hurts from sitting on the ground with my jean shorts, but we’re managing. I don’t have any comfortable pants to wear, so I’m a little chilly this morning. I’m listening to sweet music and really sitting in the Father’s presence, trying to figure out what to write and how I should explain what I’ve been going through.
so I’ve been kind of MIA on here for awhile because I’m trying to figure everything out and get comfortable. so you might be asking yourself, “why is her title for this blog post called ‘abandon?'” well, let me tell you why real quick.
I have never missed my family more than I do right now.
I have never missed my bed more than I do right now.
I have never missed my freedom with my food and where I want to go or when to have my phone more than I do right now.
I have never missed a nice, hot shower more than I do right now.
I have never missed a toilet and an actual sink more than I do right now.
but let me tell you something on the flip side of all of this.
I have never learned so much than I have being here.
I have never realized how much I love my family until I got here.
I have never realized how BIG GOD IS until I got here.
I have never had a community like this one here.
I have never had this much time to spend with the Lord.
I had never known how much my body could go through and what it was made for.
I have never grown so much until I got here.
I have never had the friends at home like I do here.
this time is a very challenging season in my life– I’m not going to deny it. there are so many things that I have to abandon, and it’s been really tough and challenging. I’ve had a lot of tears fall from my face, and have felt like I’ve been alone. but during these times, then I see God through it all. through nature, through the people, and through the silence. I have never seen God like I have here. I would live this way forever if it only meant that I could see Jesus more and more every single day. and I’m glad to announce that I’ll be seeing a whole lot more of Jesus during these next 8 months 🙂
also;; my TEAM NAME is ABANDON!!! YAY HOW COOL!! we all are abandoning our old selves and turning into new people through Christ. we are abandoning everything we know and are doing it all to live more like Jesus. so you’ll be hearing a lot more about team Abandon 🙂
that’s all for now, but I’ll be on here every week writing something new, so stayed tuned!
