“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?"
Matt. 6: 25-27
I'll admit it I've been worrying a lot lately. I feel completely overwhelmed and close to a break down. There is just so much to do and so much support to raise before I leave on May 26 for Jamaica, and nothing much seems to be coming together easily.
Key word "easily."
I know for a fact that God doesn't want this whole process to be "easy" for me. If it was easy where would God be in all of it? Yes, I've been worrying and fretting but what I really need to do is focus completely on God and trust him. It's hard to do that sometimes unfortunately. We only see what is right in front of us but God sees the big, gigantic picture. And where in the Bible did God ever say that the Christian life is easy?
I've been trying to focus and meditate on the above verse for the past few days and it's helping. Every time I read the part about the birds and how God even cares about them it encourages me immensely.
I know that God is allowing these hardships and low points so that I'll give my trust completely to him. Easier said than done. I could definitely use prayer right now for a few things specifically:
- That I will give myself completely to God and trust him in EVERYTHING.
- That everything will fall together in His timing for my trips and logistics.
- That I will see Him working in those who are supporting me and praying for me.
- That I won't worry anymore about ANYTHING. This is God's world and I am merely his tool.
Thank you for the prayers and support. I knew there would be some tough times ahead when I signed up for this. I want to welcome these rough times as they are all part of the grand adventure God has in store for me. That being said, I'd love for all the logistical phases to be over and to get into the mission field, but this is all part of His plan and I accept it.
