It's finally happened. After 18 years of school I've finally finished. I've graduated! It's been full of ups and downs, hard times and fun times, and many great friends. All the tests are over, the papers turned in, the exams sweated through and now I really can't believe I've made it to the end.
I always thought that all I'd feel at the end of it is happiness, pure unbridles happiness, but that isn't the case. I do feel that, but I also feel sadness. I've spent almost my ENTIRE life doing school and going to school. It's really all I've known and suddenly it's all done. Gone. And here I am about to go into the real world and make my mark.
It's also sad because there are so many amazing people I've met that I might never see again. I'd like to think I will, but who knows.
Graduation is full of such conflicting emotions. But mostly it's full of excitement.
Because now my life begins. I've gotten my training and now it's time to take it to the world. I never in a bajillion years thought that the first thing I'd be doing after school was missionary work. But now I can think of no better way to start my life post school.
I'm heading to Jamaica first to be a co-worship leader at a camp, and then, of course, the World Race. It stil hasn't quite set in yet.
It's incredible really the journey God has taken me through with college and where He is leading me now. There was times that I was spiritually barren, and times I was on fire for Him, times of being lukewarm, and times of doubt. But no matter what, my journey (the good and the bad) has led me to this very spot. God knew from the very beginning of time what my path would be and now He has set it before me. Thankfully I allowed my heart and eyes to be opened and actually follow this path God has so graciously laid out before me.
I do have to give a HUGE shout out to my parents though for all the countless hours they spent homeschooling me and their patience, and for paying my way and listening to me whine through college. They have been such a blessing.
Graduating school means the end of a huge section of my life, but thanks to God, has led to an even more amazing direction; taking His love to the world. And I couldn't be more ready.
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream: not only plan, but also believe."
