God was amazing last night, (as always) but especially amazing last night. He brought an old friend to me who I haven’t seen in a while. We have been friends since we were kids, but he has been away. He has been a believer for longer than I have, and when he tried to talk to me about it before I was Christian, I just didn’t understand. NOW!!! we have a little bit more to talk about!!! Lol Well we talked for hours and he brought up some stuff in me that I really need to think about. I am making it a point to be 100% honest with my blogs so here we go…
I don’t read the bible as much as I should
I can’t recite versus like it’s my job
I don’t know the stories in the Bible that I should know
A Christian missionary is a BIG title to hold your name to!! Am I ready for that kind of a title? The answer is most defiantly YES!! I’m not perfect in the SLIGHTEST!!!! I have SOO much to work on!!! I’m what I like to call a ‘baby’ Christian.
I want to know the Bible back and forth!!!
It drives me crazy of how much I sin everyday!!
WHY!!!! WHYYYY!!!!!
I know better!!! I want to be better!!
I need to start NOW!! This very second to devote my life to GOD!! Live the way HE wants us to live how it is written!! Live by every word that is written!!
I don’t want to be the person I was!!
Lord I want to live my life for YOU and only you!!
God, I can’t wait to see what you will teach me in the next year of my life, take this time to transform me inside and out Lord!!
When I’m tired Lord, give me strength to spread your love!!
When I’m in pain, remind me of the pain Jesus went through! My pain is nothing!
I am NOT going on this trip to :
Get stamps in my passport
Say “look what I did”
Live comfortably
Sit on a beach and go to all these tropical places
Talk to a home less man and think I did a good deed
Judge the rest of the world because of what they don’t have
Play with little black kids because, It’s cute, or, it’ll make a cute picture
NO!! NOOOOOOOO!!!
That is in NO way what I want to take out of this year!!!
I AM going on this trip to:
Talk about how AMAZING God is!!! As much as I can.
To raise the dead!! Bring the dead to life!! THE DEAD!!
To heal the sick!!
To touch lives and make an impact in their hearts forever !!
God is NEVER giving up on ME!! ME!! Jesus suffered soooo much for ME!! Why can’t I repay Him for the freedom he gave me!!! Give the love that I feel all day every day right back to him!!!
Live my life for HIM because he gave his life for ME!!!
I’M DONE!! I am done living a selfish life!! Please pray that I devote every second of my life to HIM!! Pray that every word that comes out of my mouth is what God would want me to say. Every action I do reflects the life Jesus lived.
Pray for me to be pure!! Pure of negative, sexual, sinful thoughts!!!
I know I have A LOT to work on, but what I can tell you is that I am WILING to work on it!!! I WANT to work on my sins and I WANT to be pure!!!
