Well, I have been home for about two months now and I figured I should write an I’m home blog, lol. If you followed me last year then you will know that I’m not a huge blogger.
As I was saying, I have been home for about two months and it has been an interesting experience. Transitioning back to sweet America has been fun and hard all at the same time. I’m loving getting to see family and friends and getting to back the comforts of America. Some days I’m not loving it though. Some days I’m overwhelmed and frustrated by the things I see and hear. I will try to explain my thoughts a little bit. It’s like my brain has two lives. I have the American life and my abroad life and they are trying to figure out which one is accurate or correct.
My American life tells me that it is ok to self consume and live life as it is. It reminds me of how much I enjoy the comforts of being home. It wants to take me back to my Christian bubble and go back into my normal routine with going to Wednesday bible study,church on Sunday, go to conferences, and help people here and there and that’s it. I’m not saying that any of these things are wrong either, but my abroad life is Brent it’s ok to live off less. You don’t need all of this stuff. You already have so much, just be grateful for what you have. My abroad life reminds me of the comforts that I didn’t have but how I learned to live and enjoy not having those comforts. It wants me to get out of the routine and go be the church, go sit and talk with the homeless, go pray for people, or just simply GO!
As I read what I wrote, I realize that this is such an interesting contrast between the two. This is what I go through pretty often. Some days are great and some days I’m questioning everything and wondering why we do what we do. I’m not trying to be judgmental either. My mind is confused. My eyes have seen so much last year that it doesn’t know what to think. Some days all I can think about the little African kids that didn’t know if they were going to have food to eat that day and then how I see how we as people can be so wasteful. I know you want fully understand, but I hope it helps you understand a little bit about what goes through my mind.
Since I’ve been home I have been visiting with family and friends. It has been good getting to see my mom, grandparents and friends and that mean a lot to me. That has been really good. For about a month, I was between Mississippi and Florida, but I have settled in Florida where I plan on being for a while. While I was on the race, I had so many dreams and desires that I wanted to do when I got home. The funny thing is that reality kicked in and I know I have to take care of my responsibilities. In the meantime, I have been working odd jobs to make money. I have also started a part-time job at my church in Florida helping with young adults/youth. I’m excited about this position and what the Lord is going to do. I’m still in the process of finding a full-time job, but until then I’m learning different trades. God has been very faithful in this process. I can honestly say that I haven’t wanted for anything. He continues to amaze me with how faithful he is. I’m so thankful for everything that He is teaching me while I’m home. Through all of this, He continues to remind me of Matthew 6, as long as I seek first the kingdom of heaven, He will take care all of my needs.
