More, more, more, this has been on my heart before I started the race. The beginning of last year, I remember sitting at my desk feeling empty on the inside. My job didn't bring me that much pleasure anymore, not because I didn't have enough work or hated the people I worked with, but the Lord was calling me to more. At first, I didn't know that's what the Lord was doing. I initially thought that maybe I'm getting comfortable and I wanted something new. For me, that is very common for me with the life I lived so far. Playing sports plays a role in this. It never looked the same, spring ball was never the same, every work out was never the same, every game was never the same, and when I got to college every team was never the same. I got use to doing something for a while and the it would change. I was always use to change. That's how my life has been for years. I thought it was time to find a new position. I started looking at new positions in hopes of finding something else to do. The thought of a new position quickly faded away because that would not have helped the emptiness I felt inside.
I would listen to sermons while working and I would here about all kinds of crazy things that people were doing for the Lord. Some stories would bring me so much joy, some stories would bring me to tears (yes I cried at work a few times), and some pierced my heart so much that I would leave my desk and go somewhere where I could pray and repent because I knew I wasn't living the life that God asked of me. I finally put the pieces of the puzzle together and I knew the more in life was out doing the work of God. I finally realized that I was tired of the same life, I was tired of the regular 9-5, I was tired of doing the same routine every week. God was calling to me more.
Now, I'm out doing more, but I'm in a situation, I'm back in the position of feeling not full. This time is a different though, I'm satisfied with doing what the Lord has placed before me, but now it's spiritually. I want more of Jesus. I want more of the Holy Spirit. I want to come into the fullness of God. I want to pray for people and see them healed right there on the spot. I want to see people set free from the bondage that they have been slaved to. I want to hear the voice of God, in hopes He will give me the words to say that would bless that person. I want to have all that God desires for me. I want the gift of prophecy. This one is a bit harder for me, but even if my more is speaking in tongues I want it. I want to walk I the fullness of God. I don't want just a little bit, but I want it all. I want more of Him and less of me. James 5:17 says that Elijah was a man just like me so I believe I can do all that he did.
I want more to go in a deeper relationship with God, but I want more to help others see the glory of God. I want more in my life that when these things happen I can look that person the face and say God did that and they turn to Him and not me. I want more of Jesus and more of the Holy Spirit. I want more!!!
My encouragement to whoever reads this, is that if your a feeling empty inside about life. Maybe it's because you think you need a new job or whatever, but maybe the Lord is calling you to more. Maybe He is wanting you to step out in faith. Maybe He is calling you to do something radical for the Kingdom. Maybe He is calling you to go against the grain and do something that people would consider not normal. My challenge to you is to step out in faith because you will never go wrong following Christ.
