Community, this has been a part of my life for a little while, but never to this extent. Community every day, every hour, every minute, and every second, this type of communty. It has been a process to get use to being around people all the time. Don´t get me wrong, I love my team with all my heart, but it´s a new type of community that I´m getting use to. Community isn´t always easy. Being called out when your team sees something better in you isn´t the easist thing to swallow. Giving constructive feedback to a teammate is not always easy either because I don´t want to hurt their feelings or something, but if I don´t tell them the hard things to help them grow then I´m being selfish. This is what being a follower of Christ is about.
I think about Jesus and His disciples and how they were together a lot of the time, I often wonder what did their community look like. I can read my bible and see different stories of Jesus and His disciples, but it doesn´t give an every day account of their livelihood. I can imagine how some days had to be harder than others. I can imagine the disciples not liking Jesus calling them out on their junk all the time, but I know that they knew that he loved them and so they could except it. This is how I feel sometimes. Getting constructive feedback sucks sometime, but I know my team loves me and they want to see me live up to the life that God has called me to. He has me out of darkness into marvelous light. There is no need for me to live in darkness!!!
My team knows my deepest secrets, my deepest sins, my deepest passions, my deepest fears, and my deepest struggles. It has been so freeing to get rid of the junk that was inside me. I can really feel God cleaning me from the inside out. There has been times that I have made myself look good on the outside, but my insides would be a complete mess. This was not an everyday practice for me because sometime I didn´t want to comfess these things for the fear of getting judged or whatever. James 5:16 says, Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working. Even though is has been somewhat strange and sometimes awkward, it has lifted a weight off my shoulders. Feeling the freedom of my deepest burdens an deepest struggles has been amazing experience. My Heavenly Father is showing me things like never before.
