Words. Words are tough. Words have always been a struggle for me. From childhood when I had speech therapy songs to help me learn to pronounce my “P’s”, to my high school speech class I was so nervous to go up and speak that I wanted to hurl, to now even just trying to come up with a blog post.
The words just don’t come together. I know what I would like to say; it is just hard to put to words. Funny thing though, God doesn’t care about how well one can speak. He uses us all in our weaknesses. In Exodus 3, God calls out to Moses, and Moses responds “Here I am.” God then breaks the news to Moses that he will be going to Egypt to bring the Israelites out slavery. Moses asks “who am I, that I should go to Egypt and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?” And God said, “I will be with you.”
God is with us, he never leaves our side. I just can’t fathom that sometimes, like seriously, God, the one who created the world, is with me. And he cares about each of us individually. That is pretty amazing. Anyways, Moses basically asks what to do if people don’t listen to him. Even after God gives him several miraculous acts to do in front of Pharaoh, Moses still is afraid, in chapter 4:10, Moses said to the Lord, “o Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” But Moses said, “O Lord. Please send someone else.” Even after God assures him that he is with him and will help him speak, Moses still begs for God to choose someone else.
Moses is one of my favorite people in the bible. I think because I can relate to him most. I am most definitely not eloquent with my words. And for a very long time I would always ask God to use somebody else.
Yet here I am. I knew when I signed up for the race that there will be tough times, times I will be scared or uncomfortable. Times when I won’t know what to say. But I am inspired by the encouragement God gives to Moses. I know God doesn’t ask you to do something you aren’t capable of. It may seem daunting, what God calls you to. But rest assured, even if it gets hard, if the road is painful, if you ever feel lost… God has your back, he doesn’t leave our side.
If we feel we are not worthy of the task at hand, all we need to do is turn towards the one who assigned us, and he will teach us the way. When I am scared to speak, or my page is blank, God will help me speak and teach me what to say.
