At the beginning of this journey I had decided to go on the 3n9 to Guatemala, Malawi, and Thailand.. When I made that decision it was because of one reason, I have a connection with Guatemala because the child that I support through my FCA (Fellowship Of Christian Athletes) group is from there. The connection is so strong in my heart because as a leader of FCA I am in charge of the child and the fundraising for him! Although that is a cool reason to go and it would be amazing to see where he comes from, that doesn´t mean that´s where God wants me…
A few weeks ago I began to feel a disconnect from God and I felt lonely and lost, like this wasn’t where I needed to be. Which is a terrifying feeling when you are laying 9 months of your life down for God. After some prayer I realized that I had not taken the time to earnestly pray and ask God where HE wanted me! I mean how did I miss that? It is such a vital importance to ask God for guidance, especially in this situation!! Once I had realized the mistake I had made, guess what I did? What any sensible person would do! I got down on my knees and cried out “Lord, where do YOU want me? Send me, I will go.”
As the day went by I remembered I had seen the new September route and immediately I felt God pulling me towards it, so I got out my laptop and looked at the route and as I was looking at the places I would be going, I felt more excited than I had through this entire journey. In that time I still felt somewhat uneasy and not completely at peace, so once again I asked God for reassurance and what did He do? The next day as I was driving home in the evening, I started praying that God would give me peace and on that car ride I had a definite feeling in my heart that God wanted me on the 5n9 trip. I have never felt such a peace as I did in that moment, it was the best feeling in the world. To GOD be the glory!!!
