Here’s when it gets interesting…
I have never left my house for more than a week, I was the girl that left my church camp early to come home. So you can imagine my response when God lead me on a 9 month missions trip. It first started with a spiritual gifts test when my #1 gift was “missionary” and I mean I just laughed, because I knew this thing had to be wrong. A few weeks later someone came and shared her story of The World Race and their experience which I found very interesting, but never actually thought I would go. As God continued to put missions in my path i just giggled and told God “God you have got the wrong person, there is NO WAY”. Then it became real, and I mean it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was at my youth retreat and I was asking my group to please pray for me and my college decisions. After that we went to Saturday night worship and the message was given, but it didn’t really impact me any different than normal. So then they played music and at this particular retreat it was normal to go up front and sing in front of the stage, which if you don’t know me I love worship (even though I am an awful singer) and I was one of the first up there which put me directly in front of the stage. When they played music each song they sang was about fear, which was something that had been hindering me to give my future to God, and I remember in that moment just handing my life and everything ahead of me to God and I said “Send me, I’ll go” and God said back to me “Go”. Now at this point I had fell to my knees just drowning in tears and smiling (I am sure it was weird to see) but I was so happy in that moment because I knew God had a plan for my life, that was much greater than my own. Yet I was sobbing because I was terrified, I know God had a plan but I was still so afraid to leave everything I have ever known. And in that moment I just asked God to never leave me and I prayed that He would show me His love. Next thing I know the girl next to me (whom I have never met) hugged me and told me I was loved. I mean HELLO, how much better could this get!? God has given me answers and reassured me every time I have doubted Him, I don’t deserve that reassurance but He gives it to me anyway. I will never forget that day because it was the day God changed my entire life.
At this point, I have never trusted God more and my faith has never been stronger. It’s weird because I have never been so at peace, although I am leaving my family, friends and so much more behind I know that what’s ahead is God’s plan and I am so excited to experience that. Where God guides, He provides.
Thanks for reading, God Bless! 
