…and it utterly shattered my heart.
When it was said and done, I wasn’t so much hurt by my circumstances…as I was by God.
But in the depths of my soul, I knew better than to question His motives…while I could see nothing of His plan.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
So I chose to trust…to continue to follow…despite my logic, emotion and circumstance.
Why?
I wish I had a more holy answer…but quite frankly…because I was too far in. Really. Nearly 3 years ago, I bet the farm on Jesus…and I’ll be gosh darned if I don’t see this thing through. 🙂
“If you give God the right to yourself, he will make a holy experiment out of you. God’s experiments always succeed.” – Oswald Chambers
But that didn’t mean it was easy.
I guess nobody told me that it would be.
But several months and 5 countries later…I’m beginning to understand His purpose, the necessity of heartbreak and the glory of His plan.
For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all — how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Romans 8:29-32
When the pieces began to come back together, I asked God…”How would you use a small town girl with small town dreams in the Kingdom of God?”
And here is what He told me…
You let her heart break.
