So it’s been a while since I wrote a blog, but I wanted to share my heart for a bit. After coming home from the Race, I sensed this tremendous peace but urgency to hold onto God even tighter than before. It was as if I was holding his hand the whole time on the field, then while in the states for a few days my grip started to slip. It was actually what I felt in my spirit. It caused me to lean on Him even more, with all the questions and future plans. This weight of conformity and comfort tried to place itself on me but I refused to take it because I want to be zealous for the Lord.
Can I tell you that that conviction or act of obedience to stay “steady and steadfast” lifted me above the haze of coming home. Of course there are situations we all face at home. But one major thing God showed me on the race is that I’m not going to save my family, only He can save them. Really it takes owning up to your own faith and letting the Lord use that. No matter how much I want them to know the lord, my job is to LOVE them. My base host in Costa Rica, and dear friend, Kevin Johnson said , “ people don’t need more information, they need an encounter with love.” Which after he said that it reminded me of what God did for me in college. All he did was pour out his love on me!! So as I’ve aimed for love, God has used it by being able to give prayer, money, encouragement, and service.
Currently: Im living in Austin, seeking God almost daily. Wanting an amazing experience everyday! Im currently working for a landscaping company and I love it, mainly because I get to use my heart and hands. Giving my best effort in every area of life. Can I tell you it’s hard going from constant community to not so much at all, especially in these times. But I think maybe God is calling us to fall in love with him again! Our first love, is and was always him. Fighting to come from an open heart and giving these men I’m working with, a spirit yielded to the lord. Uncertain of what’s to come, missions is awesome, but right now God has me here. Trusting that he’s good and he’s directing my feet. Whatever the next step is, I know it will be taken with joy and confidence in my Father.
