when I answered the call to missions to actually go rather then just be a supporter, I went in out of faith that god would provide the means to do what he has assigned me to do, even when it seemed an impossible task from the get go, this 11 month mission trip is just the beginning. God has already shown up in so many ways 🙂 I’m half way on funds for trip witch is pretty awesome 🙂 everything was go’n pretty good till I started out to get my visa for India 2 weeks ago now, it has been one thing after another, both my cars have been breaking down, have missed 3 days of work week before last, 2 days last week, and have had to miss today cause I don’t have a way to get to work, am go’n to pick up my Chevy from shop today thou, not sure how much it will cost, I’m so close to the edge of going bankrupt and homeless it’s not even funny, even if it cost nothing to get my car back I still won’t make rent this month, but that’s ok living and sleeping in my car till January is fine, I’ve endured living conditions through out my life that make living in a car a fine luxury haha. and depending on what it cost to get my car out the shop I probly won’t be able to cover my other bills, basically i’m fighting to save my credit score that I’ve worked so hard and long to build up, but I can’t help but wander, what’s an American credit score worth to the rest of the world? what’s a credit score worth to god?
as I sit here reading in the book of Daniel, reading how god saved Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, and how he took down babylon, and gave Nebuchadnezzar the mind of an animal for 7 years then restored him as king, and Daniel in the loins den, and the writhing on the wall, i can see how everything that his servants had faced was not about them but for the Glory of the Father, to show the people around them that he is the only true God, all Powerful and who does as he pleases to whomever he chooses to bring glory to him and expand his kingdom,
I have always known this thing is not about me, and only go’n cause it’s what god has assigned me to do, reading these story’s reminds me even more so that it’s not bout me or even for me, it’s about him and his glory, so others can see that he really is a good good father and loves his people to no end,
so I stand here on the edge of losing everything I got on top of still needing to raise $8600 waiting on God to show up, weather he chooses to save me financially or let me crash he will still be my good good Father 🙂 I know that some how in the end it will all be for his glory and kingdom purpose, his Providence 🙂 http://youtu.be/9B1qhQvD020
