I seem to always misjudge my strengths. For some reason I always tend to think that I am a lot stronger then I think I am. This past month was very difficult, we were paired up with a secular school/orphanage. It was a challenge to think about ways to show Gods love without actually directly talking about Gods love. We were truly blessed in that place because the school actually asked us to teach the bible. Phew struggle number one was taken care of. The next struggle was something that I didn't see coming. I thought that since I was with a group of some of the strongest Christians I have ever met, I wouldn't struggle being in a secular environment this month… I was dead wrong! It was a blind struggle, it was something I didn't even notice. Not until, by the grace of God, got in contact with a local church and attended in our second weekend. The local church in itself was an amazing experience because it is actually a church that was planted by my home church. Back to the topic at hand, it wasn't until I got there and began to worship with the church did it hit me. I felt like I could breath, for the first time that month I just felt a complete release. It was an amazing feeling, even though I was reading my bible more then I ever had been before, and I was praying just as much. Even though I was still doing all those things, I was walking blind. I needed something but I didn't know it. When I was in that room worshiping with a large group of believer it finally hit me. You need that fellowship, you need people around you that can encourage you. You need more then just the family you have living with you, you need fellowship. It's something that seems so simple and like something you can do without. Yet I was so refreshed when I had it.
