Wow so I feel kind of dumb…. I've been doing this whole blogging thing for hhhmmm, about the last three months now and well I just realized i dont have an about me section….. I wrote an about me blog, but nothing in my about me section. To think that I thought that I had a handle on this whole thing. Always humbled.
So had I written this three months ago I honestly believe that a lot would be different about me. While I am still very my sense of humor is still an extremely dominate feature in my life I believe I am finally becoming the man that God longs for me to be. I am finally finding those other characteristics that has been vacant and oh so nessesary. What are those characteristics that have been so nessesary that I had found till recently?
BOLDNESS – Up until recently if i saw someone spitting false truths about God and about religion I would say "I accept your beliefs and here are mine." I always wanted to be "the cool Christian" the one that wasnt pushy, the one that didn't knock what you believe, the one who tried to be tactfull when talking about Jesus. What have I learned? I have learned that what I used to be is all for nothing. While Jesus can do anything, nothing good was going to come out of a timid Chirstian, other then hopefully the not so timid Christian. What really changed my mind? We are called to be disiples of Jesus. What did the Disiples do when they went from city to city, did they say "hey I accept what you believe, this here is what I believe. Please believe what I believe, but if not thats cool"? Pardon my language but HELL NO they walked into town under the authority of the one true God and said "TURN AWAY FROM YOUR FALSE GODS AND FALSE IDOLS! TURN NOW TO THE ONE TRUE GOD! TURN TO JESUS!" They were BOLD they didnt take crap from no one. I guess I was a product of the world today, where boldness in faith is discouraged and a timid non pushy approach is expected. I followed those rules. No longer am I making that mistake.
LOVE & PURITY – Yano, there are a lot of Christians that aren't real about this topic. They refuse to admit their struggles, they refuse to admit their weaknesses. As fell right in line with them, but not anymore. I am REAL, I am an open book. Yet since I was never really honest with myself about this I was never able to correct such an easy problem. I always hid it from myself and even my small group. I have for way to long fought a losing battle with complacency with this area. I WASN'T loving, and I WASN'T pure. I was almost consumed by this way to common thought "eh, saved by grace, so its cool if i keep doing it" How wrong was I? SSSOOOO WRONG! Until I turned away from that thought, I was stuck in a ditch on the side of the road that I should have been traveling. No longer am I trying to drive this road blindfolded. I have opened my eyes to see what I need to see, to live how I ought to live.
MEMORY – Now I know that this one may sound a bit funny, but I was living my life from one great sermon to the next. I would learn so much then forget it all the next week when I learned something new. I don't know if this person knows I know they said this but I was called a "Flavor Of The Week Christian" When I first heard it I was shocked and bitter. "How can he say something like that, he doesn't really know me" Its funny how the people around us can sometimes be so good at pointing out the flaws that we refuse to accept. I lacked a memory, I hate admitting it but its true. Now its all a giant puzzle that each message, each new thing I learn fits into, so perfectly. Not forgetting the past but letting it be apart of my present and future.
HUMILITY – I am wrong A LOT, yet I think I can count on one hand the amount of times I willingly admitted I was wrong. I grew up in a MEGA competitive family, "if you arent the best shut your mouth, you arent allowed to talk" That was the basic mentality of my family. I never realized how hard headed I was until I, well, finally listened to my friends. Humility is a tough thing, it's been something I've longed for. It's been something I've strived for, I had worked so hard to be humble that I was counter acting everything that humility is. You just have to kinda arrive there, there is no road. Looking for it only pushes you farther away from it, to be humble is to not look for it.
This is crazy, I was sitting down to teach you a little bit about me and well I guess I just taught myself about myslef. If you want to know more about who I am and where I come from you can check out my "Who Am I" blog here http://brandonforshall.theworldrace.org/?filename=who-am-i
