While talking to my Dad tonight he said something to me, he said something to me. Something that really made me think. What did he say? He said that I have a lot of growing up to do. Of course at first no one is going to like hearing that. But the more I think about it the more I agree with him. I used to view myself as very grown up, I worked two years right out of high school doing construction, attempted to go back to school. After a year and a half of school I decided that I was better off where I was working. I was mostly happy with where I was because of the money I was making. Also I knew that this job was something I could do for the rest of my life. I was set in my life, without trying or searching, I was set. I never had any struggle. While I've had my fair share or bad experiences in my life I've never really struggled. I've never had to fully rely on God for everything I needed. I've been able to rely on myself for almost anything and everything I've needed. And for my age, I was living the life. I had and could get anything a kid could ask for. That there was the problem anything a KID could want. I guess I never truly stopped and looked at what I was doing and where I was going. I wasn't nearly going in the direction that I needed to be headed, I mean I was a Christian but not a very good one at all. I made constant bad decisions, I didn't tithe my weekly earnings, and I rarely went to God with my problems. In the couple months that it has been since I have been accepted to the race, I have finally gone to God. I have finally put my faith and trust in God. It's amazing how that in only a couple months I've gone from sitting on top of the world to barely being able to make my car payment. Now that I'm truly hitting a low point and a time where I need to rely on God I'm putting my faith in God and he is truly starting to come through. Since I was much younger I always heard FROG which stands for Fully Rely On God. Up until now I guess I only partly relied on God. Which now I understand that only partly relying on God is the place I was at that I needed to grow up in. Matthew 17:20 He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” With God NOTHING is impossible, and anything can be done. I've finally begun grow up like I need to.
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