Have you ever been so sure of something that you had not a doubt in your mind that it was right?
What did you do when that eventually wore off? Did it wear off at all?
I am going to be 100% honest with you because that’s really all I want to be with you guys.
This past week or so I have been struggling A LOT with doubt. Doubt that God is really calling me to quit my job, to leave the comforts of my life and to move around the world to 11 different countries with a bunch of people that I have only ever met online. I have not seen much fruit in fundraising, I was doing well at first but it has now come to a complete stand still and I am feeling so discouraged. So is this really what I’m going to do? Is this actually where God is calling me? If it is, how is it even going to happen? Is it okay that I am questioning God?
Well I’ll let you in on a little secret, God wants us to ask questions. In fact, he wants us to follow Him in childlike faith. Have you ever been around kids? They ask a lot of freaking questions.
So I was at church tonight and I just said, “You know what God? I know I don’t spend enough time with you. I know I question you too much. I should trust you and I do but I still struggle with it. Am I really going to do World Race?” and then I waited.
After the message and I felt a little nudge from God. I suddenly saw a flash of a train flying by a field and I’m riding on this train and I just felt God whisper, “I want you to ride along with me now, we are about to explore a whole new world. Trust me.”
I sat in that for a moment, as I sat I had a flashback to a year ago. I had nearly the same picture from God. Back then, I was trying to keep up with the train and God told me to sit in the grass and wait. He told me to find some peace in where I was at as well as commit to another full year in Silverton.
So you see, things may not make sense at the time and honestly if we didn’t ask questions then we would never know anything but the more you ask and the more you grow in where you are then the more things start to make sense and the more we start to realize just how extraordinary God really is.
So with that, I couldn’t be more excited to be stepping onto that train this next year as I begin my journey with World Race. I don’t even doubt that I will continue struggling through things but at least I know that this is exactly where God is calling me in to. 
