T-3 hours until we leave for the airport.
Yesterday I was asked how I felt and I thought about that question rather than just answering with a quick, “good!”
What I came up with though, really wasn’t “good”. I didn’t know how to answer that question at all.
How was I really feeling?
Why am I here?
Why in the world did I decide to step out of my comfort zone and do this again?
I couldn’t come up with an answer. I’m sitting in a hotel room (yes a hotel room and you can bet your bottom dollar that I’m dying cause I love hotels.)
Anyways, I’m sitting in my hotel room surrounded by people that seem so excited to be doing what they are doing.
But I still couldn’t shake the feeling that I didn’t know what I was doing here.
I had a conversation this morning with a solid voice of reason in my life who asked me the same question. “Why are you there?”
In which I again just stated, “I don’t know!”
I immediately knew that was not true but they caught me first with the fast reply, “Well, my opinion is that it should be a simple answer and here’s the answer I would hope you’d be sharing with people..your there because you love Jesus.”
I sat there stunned. How could I not realize that it was that simple? I’ve been sitting here, stuck on the this is going to be so hard.
It’s just like Bob Goff stated at church last week, “Faith isn’t easy but it’s so simple.”
Man oh man are those some of the truest words I’ve ever heard and lived.
Also, I was reminded in a lovely case of the Monday’s video, DRINK YOUR DAILY COFFEE. Make sure your taking the time to refuel with Jesus because it’s not really possible to pour from an empty cup.
Its simple though, love Jesus and love His people.
